Jenwales
23-07-14, 10:43
I've put something on here about this part of my anxiety before. But nobody answered and I know it will never be solved.
I am trying mindfullness. I am trying but I just feel so miserable. My job is too stressful and every time I manage to relax they ask me to do extra. I could be worrying over nothing but i think they will ask me to work friday which is one of my days off (I actualyl have three this week).
The shop is open 7 days a week so there is always the chance they could ask me to go in on my day off. It's open until 8 in the evening so they could ask me to work on or start early.
Yesterday I only did a short shift but it was so busy and I can't cope with the noise and the customers. You get mothers shouting at their kids, customers trying to ask you a question when you're serving someone else. People knocking things over.
I am always on my own (unless I call someone when there's a queue) as they stay out the back and sort out the delivery (stock room too small so they have to get the stuff in takes hours) but I get so flustered and they just think I'm in a mood.
I said I'd start early today but I dread work. I can't win, even if it's not too busy they give me a job to do and I have to run back and for to the till all day as we're not allowed to stay on the till.
When I have a day off or don't start until a certain time (or any shift) I worry that they'll ask me to do extra. This worry has been with me for about 4 years or so, it's from my other job and didn't go away with this one. No matter how much extra you do they keep asking for you to do more. I feel bad if I don't do it because they will struggle. But to be anxious every time my phone goes.
I have been trying for months to get a new job. The idea of being stuck here for another xmas starting at 7 in the morning and having even more stress. I feel like I'm being punished for something I swear.
I don't want to go back to worrying about work riniging I don't want to be miserable and anxious anymore. I am so sick of it
Thanks for reading this. Guess I just need someone who understands as nobody I know does.
I am trying mindfullness. I am trying but I just feel so miserable. My job is too stressful and every time I manage to relax they ask me to do extra. I could be worrying over nothing but i think they will ask me to work friday which is one of my days off (I actualyl have three this week).
The shop is open 7 days a week so there is always the chance they could ask me to go in on my day off. It's open until 8 in the evening so they could ask me to work on or start early.
Yesterday I only did a short shift but it was so busy and I can't cope with the noise and the customers. You get mothers shouting at their kids, customers trying to ask you a question when you're serving someone else. People knocking things over.
I am always on my own (unless I call someone when there's a queue) as they stay out the back and sort out the delivery (stock room too small so they have to get the stuff in takes hours) but I get so flustered and they just think I'm in a mood.
I said I'd start early today but I dread work. I can't win, even if it's not too busy they give me a job to do and I have to run back and for to the till all day as we're not allowed to stay on the till.
When I have a day off or don't start until a certain time (or any shift) I worry that they'll ask me to do extra. This worry has been with me for about 4 years or so, it's from my other job and didn't go away with this one. No matter how much extra you do they keep asking for you to do more. I feel bad if I don't do it because they will struggle. But to be anxious every time my phone goes.
I have been trying for months to get a new job. The idea of being stuck here for another xmas starting at 7 in the morning and having even more stress. I feel like I'm being punished for something I swear.
I don't want to go back to worrying about work riniging I don't want to be miserable and anxious anymore. I am so sick of it
Thanks for reading this. Guess I just need someone who understands as nobody I know does.