crystal17
25-07-14, 09:09
Hi, I posted last night on the health anxiety forum, but I realise no one there can give me answers. Waiting to see the doctor this afternoon but I'm terrified. Sorry if this post doesn't belong here, I guess it will disappear if so.
I'm worried about this swelling above my belly button, I had the same thing a few months ago and was told it was an abscess and had antibiotics for it. Most people, who aren't like me, would think nothing of it and just see their GP and assume its probably just come back. But my mind has been RACING since yesterday, because of the anxiety I suffer from and I'm thinking:
- It was never an abscess originally
- It is pancreatic cancer
- It's stomach cancer
- It's some kind of other tumour
- It's an aortic anerysm
- My whole body is infected with something
- It's cervical cancer that has spread
- I've got to have major surgery as soon as I leave the doctors this afternoon
- They will send me for lots of tests immediately
- Won't even be able to say goodbye to my son
- I'll be given a biopsy
- They'll sit me down and tell me how long I have
- Or the aneurysm will bust on the way there and it will be instant
- I don't want to die, I need to be here for my son, how would I tell him?
If I phoned my parents/sister/one of the few friends I have, and told them any of this they would laugh and say what a drama queen I am, or say that I need to stop being so self centred and over the top. And then they'd forget about my worries and wouldn't give a crap to be honest :weep:
I'm crying right now and worried SO much about what this swelling could be, I should not have googled 'abdominal mass' as that has lead to some of the things I wrote above. Please can anyone just tell me they've 'heard' me and dont judge me, as I know people are fed up with me in my life and really dont want to be there for me. And all I need is someone to just listen and understand my fears, however ridiculous they sound.
Thanks to anyone who has read this :bighug1:
I'm worried about this swelling above my belly button, I had the same thing a few months ago and was told it was an abscess and had antibiotics for it. Most people, who aren't like me, would think nothing of it and just see their GP and assume its probably just come back. But my mind has been RACING since yesterday, because of the anxiety I suffer from and I'm thinking:
- It was never an abscess originally
- It is pancreatic cancer
- It's stomach cancer
- It's some kind of other tumour
- It's an aortic anerysm
- My whole body is infected with something
- It's cervical cancer that has spread
- I've got to have major surgery as soon as I leave the doctors this afternoon
- They will send me for lots of tests immediately
- Won't even be able to say goodbye to my son
- I'll be given a biopsy
- They'll sit me down and tell me how long I have
- Or the aneurysm will bust on the way there and it will be instant
- I don't want to die, I need to be here for my son, how would I tell him?
If I phoned my parents/sister/one of the few friends I have, and told them any of this they would laugh and say what a drama queen I am, or say that I need to stop being so self centred and over the top. And then they'd forget about my worries and wouldn't give a crap to be honest :weep:
I'm crying right now and worried SO much about what this swelling could be, I should not have googled 'abdominal mass' as that has lead to some of the things I wrote above. Please can anyone just tell me they've 'heard' me and dont judge me, as I know people are fed up with me in my life and really dont want to be there for me. And all I need is someone to just listen and understand my fears, however ridiculous they sound.
Thanks to anyone who has read this :bighug1: