LadyH
28-07-14, 11:04
Hi All!!
At the absolute end of my tether here....
Had a call with my doc on Friday, explained a bunch of stuff that's been going on. He said "Nothing ringing alarm bells for him", but put a blood panel thing behind reception for me and said if I'm not feeling great, I should go in and have those & then make an app to see him.
So much progression over the weekend!!!! Extra scared cos these are things I din't tell him. The weakness in my left leg that I feel when walking- the left is noticeably & visibly skinnier than the right. I am quite fit and active and so have some quite visible muscles when flexing them, so much more prominent in my right leg. So scared this is muscle wastage :(
I've developed the inability to complete a yawn- I have the overwhelming urge to Yawn, but can't complete it. Hard to describe- I can take a deep breath but I cannot yawn, it's really freaking me out & making me worry.
It is taking all my will power not to google these two things. I haven't, an I'm going to try very very hard not to.
Funny sensation in my throat too, like i can't satisfactorily swallow. This worries me a little- but not too much, as have been very nauseous since last Thursday, and have been finding it very difficult to eat. No appetite and having to force food down.
Sleeping is very bad too- work up at 3am this morning in sweats and a pounding racing heart, couldn't sleep after that/
Had a breakdown to my boyfriend yesterday, who is great bless him but it's hard for him to understand and he's running out of things to day, I know it's difficult for him and I appreciate that.
My thoughts are constantly occupied with the obsession that I have MND, I can't see any other solutions at the moment.
Have blood tests tomorrow morning & app with doctor next week.
Stressed doesn't even begin to describe it, I am convinced & I am devastated for myself. I feel so selfish and so self involved, I feel like a horrible person.
I just want to be told that I'm okay and go on living my life, I just want to be well, however I feel really resolved to the fact that this is what I have.... I can see no other explanation and there is no way out :weep::weep:
Help!!!
At the absolute end of my tether here....
Had a call with my doc on Friday, explained a bunch of stuff that's been going on. He said "Nothing ringing alarm bells for him", but put a blood panel thing behind reception for me and said if I'm not feeling great, I should go in and have those & then make an app to see him.
So much progression over the weekend!!!! Extra scared cos these are things I din't tell him. The weakness in my left leg that I feel when walking- the left is noticeably & visibly skinnier than the right. I am quite fit and active and so have some quite visible muscles when flexing them, so much more prominent in my right leg. So scared this is muscle wastage :(
I've developed the inability to complete a yawn- I have the overwhelming urge to Yawn, but can't complete it. Hard to describe- I can take a deep breath but I cannot yawn, it's really freaking me out & making me worry.
It is taking all my will power not to google these two things. I haven't, an I'm going to try very very hard not to.
Funny sensation in my throat too, like i can't satisfactorily swallow. This worries me a little- but not too much, as have been very nauseous since last Thursday, and have been finding it very difficult to eat. No appetite and having to force food down.
Sleeping is very bad too- work up at 3am this morning in sweats and a pounding racing heart, couldn't sleep after that/
Had a breakdown to my boyfriend yesterday, who is great bless him but it's hard for him to understand and he's running out of things to day, I know it's difficult for him and I appreciate that.
My thoughts are constantly occupied with the obsession that I have MND, I can't see any other solutions at the moment.
Have blood tests tomorrow morning & app with doctor next week.
Stressed doesn't even begin to describe it, I am convinced & I am devastated for myself. I feel so selfish and so self involved, I feel like a horrible person.
I just want to be told that I'm okay and go on living my life, I just want to be well, however I feel really resolved to the fact that this is what I have.... I can see no other explanation and there is no way out :weep::weep:
Help!!!