cloudbusting
31-07-14, 17:27
Hi NMP'ers
I've stuck my nose in the door a few times for a quick lurk lately but haven't posted in a long time.
Quick recap, I got very bad mid April time and started meds. I didn't have a very good experience with them and so stopped and tried HRT. This was a bit better but had other side effects so I stopped that too.
I've been doing really well and almost felt like my old self again but recently I've had some blips and I'm scared of dipping again.
I'm finding that I am reacting to stressy situations by getting anxious and then my heart starts flipping around and the palps happen - very unpleasant. I had some cardio checks done recently and all came back as normal. I am having a 7 day monitor fitted on Monday just to finally rule anything out in that department.
On Sunday I met up with some old friends and felt worried about it. It involved climbing up Glastonbury Tor and I was scared of being out in the open, scared of getting out of breath & my heart pounding. I was worried for days beforehand and, lo and behold, as I sat waiting for my friends my heart did it's usual thing of stopping and skipping beats. BUT, I *did* climb up very, very, very slowly :D
I had very little sleep last night as my dog had some dental work yesterday and needed an anaesthetic. It really roughed him up and he was awake most of the night whimpering and not himself. I was giving him spoons of water and pain meds at 3a.m ! So, very little sleep.
Then an old friend is visiting the area and wanted to see me today. I felt stressed about this almost straight away - she isn't the type of person you can explain anxiety to, if you know what I mean, and to my shame I made up an excuse not to see her rather than risk feeling panicky in front of her and her family :blush:
As it's the school holidays there are lots of days out and events looming and I am dreading every single one of them, even though I will be with people I know and love :weep:
I thought I was over this. Any thoughts ?
Lisa x
I've stuck my nose in the door a few times for a quick lurk lately but haven't posted in a long time.
Quick recap, I got very bad mid April time and started meds. I didn't have a very good experience with them and so stopped and tried HRT. This was a bit better but had other side effects so I stopped that too.
I've been doing really well and almost felt like my old self again but recently I've had some blips and I'm scared of dipping again.
I'm finding that I am reacting to stressy situations by getting anxious and then my heart starts flipping around and the palps happen - very unpleasant. I had some cardio checks done recently and all came back as normal. I am having a 7 day monitor fitted on Monday just to finally rule anything out in that department.
On Sunday I met up with some old friends and felt worried about it. It involved climbing up Glastonbury Tor and I was scared of being out in the open, scared of getting out of breath & my heart pounding. I was worried for days beforehand and, lo and behold, as I sat waiting for my friends my heart did it's usual thing of stopping and skipping beats. BUT, I *did* climb up very, very, very slowly :D
I had very little sleep last night as my dog had some dental work yesterday and needed an anaesthetic. It really roughed him up and he was awake most of the night whimpering and not himself. I was giving him spoons of water and pain meds at 3a.m ! So, very little sleep.
Then an old friend is visiting the area and wanted to see me today. I felt stressed about this almost straight away - she isn't the type of person you can explain anxiety to, if you know what I mean, and to my shame I made up an excuse not to see her rather than risk feeling panicky in front of her and her family :blush:
As it's the school holidays there are lots of days out and events looming and I am dreading every single one of them, even though I will be with people I know and love :weep:
I thought I was over this. Any thoughts ?
Lisa x