xAsianFidgetx
10-08-14, 12:17
Hello Everyone!
I am a newbie here. I just found out that reading some of the symptoms here are very much close to what I am experiencing now. Could it be just Anxiety? Or more? OMG! I'm scared! I am hoping it's not horrible. :(
For the past years like 2012 was the start of my stress. But I didn't pay attention to it because I am busy and If I did noticed something weird, I worried about it then it will just vanished. I consider myself a big worrier even before I was in highschool. Even my sister used to call me "Paranoid" and some of my friends, because I worry to something weird stuff...Like if I touched a bubble gum to the chair that Im sitting, touching on the wall that feels slimmy...etc.
I remember in college days that I have a big worry about HIV knowing that I don't have an intercourse yet...What bothers me at that time was the blood that I touched...I feel so exhausted for that week of worrying. The feeling is strange and the symptoms that I googled is just happening or just my imagination?! To put me at ease, I did went to a test adn I found that I am not an HIV+. Good thing to that. My sister even accompanied me for testing because I am scared and shy. So that was before.
My latest anxiety now is I am concern of my heart. It started last year December when I went to a Dr. and she told me that I have elevated BP like 130/90 to 140/90 but whenever I am in a clinic. I feel nervous. So maybe that makes my BP went high. At home my cousin has a BP kit. I was outside doing something then I went back in, she told me if I wanted to take my BP then I said yes. But prior to that I feel nervous. and the eff..My BP is 160/90 and I feel so exhausted and worry so much. I keep on thinking of my BP and whenever I saw a BP kit, I am nervous and I want to freak out. Later that week, I feel so strange. I get the BP again and taking that makes me nervous, and the BP again reads 160 and I told my mom to go to the hospital because I feel sick...In the hospital the my BP wont go down even I take lower meds. The nurse told me I was nervous because I have a racing heart like it was 130 to 150. I told the nurse that I needed to go out because I can't stay calm seeing other patients with many conditions and seeing the BP kit. They gave me prescription of med to lower blood. But my mom told me not to depend on meds. Prior to that event, I have sleepless nights because thinking of what is wrong with me.
Last year was a stressful year. My father was in and out in the hospital for many months and me and my mom is always there to look and care for him. I don't have a good sleep because the nurse will wake you up for the needs opf my father. Like giving him meds, to pee...etc... That year also our house was total destroyed by a typhoon Hueiwan. Later that week my father died. Such a depressing scenario...All I did was cry, cry and cry...I sometimes prefer myself alone....then suddenly I cry...
So I think that triggers my stress that turn into anxiety and I guess depression. The most scary symptoms is my heart is racing fast. Thinking that I have heart issues. And it makes it worst. I sometimes having trouble sleeping. Massive headache. Like my head is going to crack. I do also hear voices that its not there. I can't concentrate watching my favorite Gameshow which is mostly a trivia and quizzes. I sometimes answer while watching but at that moment I can't. I feel not myself anymore. Like I try to be, but its difficult. Feels like I'm going insane...Really!
I even tend to have a suicidal thoughs. Yeah. :( I woke up in the middle of the night straight to the kitchen and thinking of a knife. But everytime I did this mom always check me out. She calls me where I am, I just I need to pee and go to the bathroom, breakdown and cry. Those episodes happened in January to April this year.
It went away, thankful because my mom always keep talking to me and as well as my aunt. Encouraging my to fight. and I need...For the month of May and June. I feel like myself but though I have some symptoms too like heart racing, trouble sleeping but I can manage it at that time.
July, my Anxiety went back on! I feel the same symptoms again. :( Feel strange, like there's no hope. I don't want to work. I just want to be in bed for all time...Why is that happening? My symptoms slowly disappearing.
Now, my heart rate is usually 84-96 when doing something or moving around. In extreme exertion my heart rate is like 100 to 120, is this normal? My heart rate when relaxing or at rest mostly when I go to sleep is like 54-72.
I don't experience racing of heart now...sometimes slow rate but pounding like there's a hammer inside your chest. Is it normal that my heart rate slow down? :( or is there something wrong? Oh my!
my other symptoms are:
Last few months:
Feels that I am floating, not on my own.
Intense headache.
Hearing voices.
Difficulty sleeping.
Suicidal thoughs.
Feel down all the time.
Heart racing.
Body pain all over.
Stomach issues.
Muscle twitches and numbness in different areas.
Breathing problem when panic kicks in.
Shaking.
Dizziness.
Chest sensations. etc...
Now:
Headaches (but not so intense now)
Dizziness (I hate this)
Feeling tired all the time.
Muscle twitches in any part.
Easily get numb on my feet.
Pounding of heart but not racing.
Upset stomach.
Gassy stomach, I need to burp if I feel bad.
Chest sensations, like a sharp pain that lasts in a second.
Pressure feeling in chest like an air trapped inside.
Shakes/Tremors during sleep.
I don't have that racing heart anymore. But I am worried because I think my heart is slowing and deteriorating! OMG! huhuhu...I cry! God forbid.
Am I in the process of healing myself? because I don't feel panicky anymore and my heart rate is not always racing...sometimes it will if I think too much and I worry too much...
I didn't take any tests on my heart. I had x-ray last year and it says there that I have a normal heart, no blockage or enlargement ect. Stool test went fine and my Bloodtest last year is Normal. Just the LDL is kinda high just alittle number and DR told me not to worry about it. HDL is quite low, just a few number and she said nothing to worry. Exercise will do make things right she added.
But I am afraid to exercise because of fast heart rate may trigger it again. :(
Does anyone here got the same symptoms as mine?
Oh please...Help...So worried....This strange thing is ruining my life. I want myself before. A happy go lucky person. :( I always throw jokes in front of my friends.. :( Even in my family but now...I can't seem to do it... I frown all the time...Thats what I noticed about myself now. I see myself in the mirror..Its not me at all...My face looks tired. stress. exhausted all the time...I miss my old me. When will it came back again...
::crying::
I am a newbie here. I just found out that reading some of the symptoms here are very much close to what I am experiencing now. Could it be just Anxiety? Or more? OMG! I'm scared! I am hoping it's not horrible. :(
For the past years like 2012 was the start of my stress. But I didn't pay attention to it because I am busy and If I did noticed something weird, I worried about it then it will just vanished. I consider myself a big worrier even before I was in highschool. Even my sister used to call me "Paranoid" and some of my friends, because I worry to something weird stuff...Like if I touched a bubble gum to the chair that Im sitting, touching on the wall that feels slimmy...etc.
I remember in college days that I have a big worry about HIV knowing that I don't have an intercourse yet...What bothers me at that time was the blood that I touched...I feel so exhausted for that week of worrying. The feeling is strange and the symptoms that I googled is just happening or just my imagination?! To put me at ease, I did went to a test adn I found that I am not an HIV+. Good thing to that. My sister even accompanied me for testing because I am scared and shy. So that was before.
My latest anxiety now is I am concern of my heart. It started last year December when I went to a Dr. and she told me that I have elevated BP like 130/90 to 140/90 but whenever I am in a clinic. I feel nervous. So maybe that makes my BP went high. At home my cousin has a BP kit. I was outside doing something then I went back in, she told me if I wanted to take my BP then I said yes. But prior to that I feel nervous. and the eff..My BP is 160/90 and I feel so exhausted and worry so much. I keep on thinking of my BP and whenever I saw a BP kit, I am nervous and I want to freak out. Later that week, I feel so strange. I get the BP again and taking that makes me nervous, and the BP again reads 160 and I told my mom to go to the hospital because I feel sick...In the hospital the my BP wont go down even I take lower meds. The nurse told me I was nervous because I have a racing heart like it was 130 to 150. I told the nurse that I needed to go out because I can't stay calm seeing other patients with many conditions and seeing the BP kit. They gave me prescription of med to lower blood. But my mom told me not to depend on meds. Prior to that event, I have sleepless nights because thinking of what is wrong with me.
Last year was a stressful year. My father was in and out in the hospital for many months and me and my mom is always there to look and care for him. I don't have a good sleep because the nurse will wake you up for the needs opf my father. Like giving him meds, to pee...etc... That year also our house was total destroyed by a typhoon Hueiwan. Later that week my father died. Such a depressing scenario...All I did was cry, cry and cry...I sometimes prefer myself alone....then suddenly I cry...
So I think that triggers my stress that turn into anxiety and I guess depression. The most scary symptoms is my heart is racing fast. Thinking that I have heart issues. And it makes it worst. I sometimes having trouble sleeping. Massive headache. Like my head is going to crack. I do also hear voices that its not there. I can't concentrate watching my favorite Gameshow which is mostly a trivia and quizzes. I sometimes answer while watching but at that moment I can't. I feel not myself anymore. Like I try to be, but its difficult. Feels like I'm going insane...Really!
I even tend to have a suicidal thoughs. Yeah. :( I woke up in the middle of the night straight to the kitchen and thinking of a knife. But everytime I did this mom always check me out. She calls me where I am, I just I need to pee and go to the bathroom, breakdown and cry. Those episodes happened in January to April this year.
It went away, thankful because my mom always keep talking to me and as well as my aunt. Encouraging my to fight. and I need...For the month of May and June. I feel like myself but though I have some symptoms too like heart racing, trouble sleeping but I can manage it at that time.
July, my Anxiety went back on! I feel the same symptoms again. :( Feel strange, like there's no hope. I don't want to work. I just want to be in bed for all time...Why is that happening? My symptoms slowly disappearing.
Now, my heart rate is usually 84-96 when doing something or moving around. In extreme exertion my heart rate is like 100 to 120, is this normal? My heart rate when relaxing or at rest mostly when I go to sleep is like 54-72.
I don't experience racing of heart now...sometimes slow rate but pounding like there's a hammer inside your chest. Is it normal that my heart rate slow down? :( or is there something wrong? Oh my!
my other symptoms are:
Last few months:
Feels that I am floating, not on my own.
Intense headache.
Hearing voices.
Difficulty sleeping.
Suicidal thoughs.
Feel down all the time.
Heart racing.
Body pain all over.
Stomach issues.
Muscle twitches and numbness in different areas.
Breathing problem when panic kicks in.
Shaking.
Dizziness.
Chest sensations. etc...
Now:
Headaches (but not so intense now)
Dizziness (I hate this)
Feeling tired all the time.
Muscle twitches in any part.
Easily get numb on my feet.
Pounding of heart but not racing.
Upset stomach.
Gassy stomach, I need to burp if I feel bad.
Chest sensations, like a sharp pain that lasts in a second.
Pressure feeling in chest like an air trapped inside.
Shakes/Tremors during sleep.
I don't have that racing heart anymore. But I am worried because I think my heart is slowing and deteriorating! OMG! huhuhu...I cry! God forbid.
Am I in the process of healing myself? because I don't feel panicky anymore and my heart rate is not always racing...sometimes it will if I think too much and I worry too much...
I didn't take any tests on my heart. I had x-ray last year and it says there that I have a normal heart, no blockage or enlargement ect. Stool test went fine and my Bloodtest last year is Normal. Just the LDL is kinda high just alittle number and DR told me not to worry about it. HDL is quite low, just a few number and she said nothing to worry. Exercise will do make things right she added.
But I am afraid to exercise because of fast heart rate may trigger it again. :(
Does anyone here got the same symptoms as mine?
Oh please...Help...So worried....This strange thing is ruining my life. I want myself before. A happy go lucky person. :( I always throw jokes in front of my friends.. :( Even in my family but now...I can't seem to do it... I frown all the time...Thats what I noticed about myself now. I see myself in the mirror..Its not me at all...My face looks tired. stress. exhausted all the time...I miss my old me. When will it came back again...
::crying::