Ollie28
11-08-14, 19:54
Why do I not feel connected to family and friends. I know I love my partner & children before all this crap started so why don't I feel connected to them, it upsets me that I don't feel like the same caring, considerate person I was. I'm still that person but my personality is being hidden away by what it is I'm going through
Is that just my illness doing that to me because I know this isn't me or how I want to or would usually feel!
Before this I was a hard working, caring, kind and thoughtful guy - always put myself 2nd, now I just feel disconnected from loved ones so if I play with my children I don't feel like I'm really doing it and in the moment, the longer it goes on the more distant and disconnected I'm becoming. It's really hurting me. 8-(
Also does anyone ever experience parts of the day where they feel like time has stood still? It's freaking me out!! I have had this a lot. I then start to question myself - what's happening? where am I going? why and what for? - I then start to panic because I tell myself that what I'm doing and how I'm going about it I wouldn't normally behave or do it that way before all this started.
I sat down with an assesor for a good hour and half told her how bad I've been what I'm experiencing some of the messed up crazy things I've been close to doing and all she said was, I'm hypavigilant - could anyone please help me to understand what the lady ment by this? I had to ask my wife to come in the room with me because honest to god most days I feel like my brain is half dead and I can't be my intelligent self and ask questions or remember things.
Thanks x
Is that just my illness doing that to me because I know this isn't me or how I want to or would usually feel!
Before this I was a hard working, caring, kind and thoughtful guy - always put myself 2nd, now I just feel disconnected from loved ones so if I play with my children I don't feel like I'm really doing it and in the moment, the longer it goes on the more distant and disconnected I'm becoming. It's really hurting me. 8-(
Also does anyone ever experience parts of the day where they feel like time has stood still? It's freaking me out!! I have had this a lot. I then start to question myself - what's happening? where am I going? why and what for? - I then start to panic because I tell myself that what I'm doing and how I'm going about it I wouldn't normally behave or do it that way before all this started.
I sat down with an assesor for a good hour and half told her how bad I've been what I'm experiencing some of the messed up crazy things I've been close to doing and all she said was, I'm hypavigilant - could anyone please help me to understand what the lady ment by this? I had to ask my wife to come in the room with me because honest to god most days I feel like my brain is half dead and I can't be my intelligent self and ask questions or remember things.
Thanks x