**whenwillthisend**
21-12-06, 21:10
well another christmas is here, and just like last year im worried about my health-last year it was a brain tumour i had-this year it cancer of the ovary/womb/cervix....and i feel im gonna give my family a really sh***y xmas cos of it.........
i wondered if anyone wants to join me in a "no checking" themselves over the next week(well after xmas day at least!), cos i fear if i carry on feeling for lumps im gonna find something-then not be able to contact docs, as they are closed for a few days-i know its mad (what sane person thinks this way!)....im going to really try, for the sake of my children to try and think about them, and not my health anxiety...the thing is, i know if im not checking for lumps i will start to get aches etc....so the anxiety wins every time.....im having a really bad few days!!
take care all xx
i wondered if anyone wants to join me in a "no checking" themselves over the next week(well after xmas day at least!), cos i fear if i carry on feeling for lumps im gonna find something-then not be able to contact docs, as they are closed for a few days-i know its mad (what sane person thinks this way!)....im going to really try, for the sake of my children to try and think about them, and not my health anxiety...the thing is, i know if im not checking for lumps i will start to get aches etc....so the anxiety wins every time.....im having a really bad few days!!
take care all xx