worriednow22
15-08-14, 01:03
Ok,
This is a serious post so please no jokes. so heres the story. I went out to a bar an drank about 6 shots of vodka and topped it off with a beer almost 72 hours ago. I went out with a friend to a dance club and everything was fine. Anyways after that I went home alone.
The thing is I am low on money and I am staying at this youth hostel place. There were like 4 other guys staying in the same room as me via bunkbeds. I got home around 4 am and went to sleep fast I remember. When I drink it really puts me in a deep sleep. Anyways it was blazing hot because this place has no air conditioner so I was just sleeping in my boxers and no cover I think.
I have stayed at youth hostels before and always considered them safe. I went to sleep and woke up later in the night and felt sick. I had a pain in my anal area too I noticed that was deep feeling.
Anyways I wake up the next day and I still have a pain my anal area. Its like a deep throbbing pain. I really didnt think much about it the first half of the day because I have a bump in that area that sometimes produces a pain (Im guessing hemorroid maybe) and I figured the alcohol must have aggravated it or something. But then I started wondering why now when I drink and not the other times? I think maybe I can recall a time a few months ago when I had a pain in that area but im not certain with a bulging bump that went away in a few days.
Anyways I have never talked to any of these guys before and dont know them. I am pretty sure though one of them is gay and from france though based on how he acts and talks. I started to panic and now its 3 days later and I still have the anal pain. Its getting better but still im worried.
Not to get too graphic but another thing is I noticed my bowels today smelled like perfume or something. I thought that was really odd and started to really panic thinking this could be some lube or something left over. But it happened nearly 72 hours ago....wouldnt any lube be flushed out by now?
Heres the thing. I have no memory of anyone raping me. But the thing is when I drink it knocks me out cold sometimes. The good thing is I do remember waking up feeling sick. So if that waked me up wouldn't I wake up during anal penetration considering nothing has ever been up my anus before.
I am really scared I could get hiv from this. I mean I have always feared hiv and maybe that fear has attracted it to me. I read that anal rape is a high chance of hiv. I mean...if he had hiv what would my risk be? Its at least 10% right since it would have been rough since he was raping me. I am really worried if I was raped there is a good chance I have hiv now.
The good news is I thank god have no memory of some dude on top of me. Surely by the grace of god I would wake up during an anal rape right? Or was I too drunk? What do you guys think considering what I have told you? I mean wouldn't I have some sort of vague memory of someone raping me if it happened?
Let me just say. The only "proof" I have of being raped is the anal pain. It is a deep pain, throbbing but not unbearable. Its uncomfortable and hurts some though. I can actually press on an area in my anal area that hurts more and it feels like a mass/bump on my skin or something.
But the only proof of rape is the fact I was in sleeping in the same room with 4-5 total male strangers, it was hot and I was in my boxers only. I have no memories of rape or anything like that. If I did not have a pain I would have never suspected rape or even entertained the thought. But I guess pain alone is enough evidence to signal it might have happened.
This is a serious post so please no jokes. so heres the story. I went out to a bar an drank about 6 shots of vodka and topped it off with a beer almost 72 hours ago. I went out with a friend to a dance club and everything was fine. Anyways after that I went home alone.
The thing is I am low on money and I am staying at this youth hostel place. There were like 4 other guys staying in the same room as me via bunkbeds. I got home around 4 am and went to sleep fast I remember. When I drink it really puts me in a deep sleep. Anyways it was blazing hot because this place has no air conditioner so I was just sleeping in my boxers and no cover I think.
I have stayed at youth hostels before and always considered them safe. I went to sleep and woke up later in the night and felt sick. I had a pain in my anal area too I noticed that was deep feeling.
Anyways I wake up the next day and I still have a pain my anal area. Its like a deep throbbing pain. I really didnt think much about it the first half of the day because I have a bump in that area that sometimes produces a pain (Im guessing hemorroid maybe) and I figured the alcohol must have aggravated it or something. But then I started wondering why now when I drink and not the other times? I think maybe I can recall a time a few months ago when I had a pain in that area but im not certain with a bulging bump that went away in a few days.
Anyways I have never talked to any of these guys before and dont know them. I am pretty sure though one of them is gay and from france though based on how he acts and talks. I started to panic and now its 3 days later and I still have the anal pain. Its getting better but still im worried.
Not to get too graphic but another thing is I noticed my bowels today smelled like perfume or something. I thought that was really odd and started to really panic thinking this could be some lube or something left over. But it happened nearly 72 hours ago....wouldnt any lube be flushed out by now?
Heres the thing. I have no memory of anyone raping me. But the thing is when I drink it knocks me out cold sometimes. The good thing is I do remember waking up feeling sick. So if that waked me up wouldn't I wake up during anal penetration considering nothing has ever been up my anus before.
I am really scared I could get hiv from this. I mean I have always feared hiv and maybe that fear has attracted it to me. I read that anal rape is a high chance of hiv. I mean...if he had hiv what would my risk be? Its at least 10% right since it would have been rough since he was raping me. I am really worried if I was raped there is a good chance I have hiv now.
The good news is I thank god have no memory of some dude on top of me. Surely by the grace of god I would wake up during an anal rape right? Or was I too drunk? What do you guys think considering what I have told you? I mean wouldn't I have some sort of vague memory of someone raping me if it happened?
Let me just say. The only "proof" I have of being raped is the anal pain. It is a deep pain, throbbing but not unbearable. Its uncomfortable and hurts some though. I can actually press on an area in my anal area that hurts more and it feels like a mass/bump on my skin or something.
But the only proof of rape is the fact I was in sleeping in the same room with 4-5 total male strangers, it was hot and I was in my boxers only. I have no memories of rape or anything like that. If I did not have a pain I would have never suspected rape or even entertained the thought. But I guess pain alone is enough evidence to signal it might have happened.