inthemind85
20-08-14, 23:06
Grrr..... Very annoyed.
I'm not on meds at the moment and trying to get through this via CBT and group therapy.
I had two panic attacks today, one on the way to the group session, and one half way in, in front of everybody.
I managed to hold it together but I keep feeling like i'm never going to go back to normal...
I got my first panic attack 6 months ago and add onto this Health Anxiety, Depression etc... this has all escalated this year and is taking its toll on me!
Can anybody relate? Tight chest, light headed, head in a vice, VERY cold hands, stiff neck, stiff shoulders, back muscles are completely rigid.
This time my neck was pulsing and aching! I was (in that moment) CONVINCED I was having a stroke.
Why do I keep doing this to myself every attack and not convince myself it's just anxiety?
I've probably had at least 20 severe attacks by now, and I still think "next time it's going to finish me off".
When actually I have a undiagnosed decease and that is the reason for these so-called 'panic attacks'...
I feel victimised by it, why me? What have I done to deserve not just the years of social anxiety that ran up to this point, but now have to deal with these panic attacks. I almost feel like 'is there an end to this suffering?!'.
Sorry for the rant! Panic hasn't been in my good books lately and i'm trying SO hard to not google health symptoms or go back to the Doctor, and fight this on my own.
I'm not on meds at the moment and trying to get through this via CBT and group therapy.
I had two panic attacks today, one on the way to the group session, and one half way in, in front of everybody.
I managed to hold it together but I keep feeling like i'm never going to go back to normal...
I got my first panic attack 6 months ago and add onto this Health Anxiety, Depression etc... this has all escalated this year and is taking its toll on me!
Can anybody relate? Tight chest, light headed, head in a vice, VERY cold hands, stiff neck, stiff shoulders, back muscles are completely rigid.
This time my neck was pulsing and aching! I was (in that moment) CONVINCED I was having a stroke.
Why do I keep doing this to myself every attack and not convince myself it's just anxiety?
I've probably had at least 20 severe attacks by now, and I still think "next time it's going to finish me off".
When actually I have a undiagnosed decease and that is the reason for these so-called 'panic attacks'...
I feel victimised by it, why me? What have I done to deserve not just the years of social anxiety that ran up to this point, but now have to deal with these panic attacks. I almost feel like 'is there an end to this suffering?!'.
Sorry for the rant! Panic hasn't been in my good books lately and i'm trying SO hard to not google health symptoms or go back to the Doctor, and fight this on my own.