aangel
21-08-14, 11:05
So for past week or so I've been thinking a lot (way too much) about so many things. And because of my intrusive thoughts about death along with sudden fears about it. I started thinking a lot about religion. My family believes in god but we're not really religious. But my grandmother is and she gave me some bible literature as a teenager and I still have it today. I don't know why but thinking about it and reading and researching online has caused on and off cold flashes of fear. It's the freakiest thing. Is it because my nerves have being pretty bad this week? I'll admit religion (as I became a teenager) is something that has always seemed overwhelming and something so bigger than myself. It's kind of intimidating in a way. I had bible studies as a kid but it was only for a few months an it wasn't a bad experience. Anyway the perfectionist in me has always been hesitant on the subject because I don't want to commit to something so important then do it halfway and be a waffler. Does anyone have any thoughts about this? I'm (okay) exhausted by all deep thinking I've been doing.