Deanosbeano
23-08-14, 16:19
Hi all ,
Seeking a bit of advice really , I am a total noob in the anxiety and depression field and would like to ask thoughts about the benefit vs the cons of taking prescribed medicine in conjunction with the following history of my story .
6 months ago I had a bad virus and was laid up in bed for 1 week , this was the first time in my 20 years in employment I had ever been laid up with propper man flu (no the mythical version)
I went back to work possibly earlier than I should and this was probably a strengthened case because within 2 hours of being back at work I was overcome by a bright kaliedoscope light in the corner of my right eye with time it movedd across my eye and everything to the right of it was blurred.
My self preservation kicked in and I did as I have always done , ran to the nearest water closet and dowsed my head with cold water , relaxed and drove home straight to my own bed.
At this time I shrugged it off after reading about ocular migraines and the virus I had the previous week being known culprits for my experience .
Over the next six months I had without knowing become depressed about work and extremely anxious , I say without knowing because the effects where not obvious , ive always been a yoyo in my moods either way up or way down with the odd occasion of a good old cry .
On Monday last week I was talking to a colleague when all of a sudden this feeling struck me right on the top of my head , it felt like that buzz when your really tired and your eyes are closing and you aint gonna stop it , however this was different , it wasnt the eyes it wasnt sleep nor did I feel sleepy , this was just that numbness in the top of my scalp , I put my hands on my head and ducked in shock , then I made some stuoid excuse and exited the room and worried myself stupid , brain tumour , blood poisoning I had it all .
So these feelings where now happening every hour and more intense and the self diagnosis was getting more and more dire, but worse was to come , I was scheduled to drive 60 miles to a meeting of senior directors on Tuesday and I was frightening my self to oblivion thinking what if this head clamp happens when im speaking , well it didnt wait till I spoke , I willed it to happen , I made myself believe I was going to faint in front of all these people and I was going to be embarrased , the first wave came and I managed to get through it by fidgeting and grimacing , the second one came 10 minutes later, this one was no worse but my mind made sure I got up and excused myself to the toilet because I was going to faint there and then .
I went to the toilet and my self preservation kicked in I wet my head through with cold water and realised there was no towels , this made it worse but I didnt think straight , the lack of towels had taken my mind off the anxiety so I felt a kind of worry I could handle , went straight back tothe boardroom hair wet through looking like Elvis and sat down , everyone looking at me started off anothere anxiety attack , I stood up and said , I am in a bad way and need to goto the Drs I will report back as soon as. I am laughing my head off writitng this but its not funny I respect that please feel free to laugh at my elvis impression too :)
Soooo heres the advice seek part, I rang the Drs and told the receptionist my symptoms , she said the Dr will ring me in 1 hour after surgery and she will book me a full apointment for the next day . I had the chat with the doc , he went through the stroke questions and said dont panic ........... come in tomorrow we will do some bloods and have a chat .
I went for those blood's and that chat and in respect of any blood results I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression , from the very moment the DR did the questionnaires and relayed he had done the bloods only out of routine and that he expected nothing to come back , the anxiety is gone because I know its not cancer et al and I am blo king out the crap, however the little buzzy feeling is still taunting me albeit about a 3 in strenght where as mondays was 8.
Should I continue to self cope and manage this little buzz in the head thats now about every 3 hours or is it known that trying to get rid of that buzz without medication leads to worsening ?
My fear is the little buzz will catch me off guard and an anxiety attack will creeep in
Many thanks in advance and I apologise for my grammar et al im on a new machine lol
P.S I understand this is all subjective , im really seeking people who have experience of being in the same pos and whether after month or so they had wished they had took meds or even people who decided like I have so far to shrug my shoulders at the buzz and did they get through ok
Seeking a bit of advice really , I am a total noob in the anxiety and depression field and would like to ask thoughts about the benefit vs the cons of taking prescribed medicine in conjunction with the following history of my story .
6 months ago I had a bad virus and was laid up in bed for 1 week , this was the first time in my 20 years in employment I had ever been laid up with propper man flu (no the mythical version)
I went back to work possibly earlier than I should and this was probably a strengthened case because within 2 hours of being back at work I was overcome by a bright kaliedoscope light in the corner of my right eye with time it movedd across my eye and everything to the right of it was blurred.
My self preservation kicked in and I did as I have always done , ran to the nearest water closet and dowsed my head with cold water , relaxed and drove home straight to my own bed.
At this time I shrugged it off after reading about ocular migraines and the virus I had the previous week being known culprits for my experience .
Over the next six months I had without knowing become depressed about work and extremely anxious , I say without knowing because the effects where not obvious , ive always been a yoyo in my moods either way up or way down with the odd occasion of a good old cry .
On Monday last week I was talking to a colleague when all of a sudden this feeling struck me right on the top of my head , it felt like that buzz when your really tired and your eyes are closing and you aint gonna stop it , however this was different , it wasnt the eyes it wasnt sleep nor did I feel sleepy , this was just that numbness in the top of my scalp , I put my hands on my head and ducked in shock , then I made some stuoid excuse and exited the room and worried myself stupid , brain tumour , blood poisoning I had it all .
So these feelings where now happening every hour and more intense and the self diagnosis was getting more and more dire, but worse was to come , I was scheduled to drive 60 miles to a meeting of senior directors on Tuesday and I was frightening my self to oblivion thinking what if this head clamp happens when im speaking , well it didnt wait till I spoke , I willed it to happen , I made myself believe I was going to faint in front of all these people and I was going to be embarrased , the first wave came and I managed to get through it by fidgeting and grimacing , the second one came 10 minutes later, this one was no worse but my mind made sure I got up and excused myself to the toilet because I was going to faint there and then .
I went to the toilet and my self preservation kicked in I wet my head through with cold water and realised there was no towels , this made it worse but I didnt think straight , the lack of towels had taken my mind off the anxiety so I felt a kind of worry I could handle , went straight back tothe boardroom hair wet through looking like Elvis and sat down , everyone looking at me started off anothere anxiety attack , I stood up and said , I am in a bad way and need to goto the Drs I will report back as soon as. I am laughing my head off writitng this but its not funny I respect that please feel free to laugh at my elvis impression too :)
Soooo heres the advice seek part, I rang the Drs and told the receptionist my symptoms , she said the Dr will ring me in 1 hour after surgery and she will book me a full apointment for the next day . I had the chat with the doc , he went through the stroke questions and said dont panic ........... come in tomorrow we will do some bloods and have a chat .
I went for those blood's and that chat and in respect of any blood results I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression , from the very moment the DR did the questionnaires and relayed he had done the bloods only out of routine and that he expected nothing to come back , the anxiety is gone because I know its not cancer et al and I am blo king out the crap, however the little buzzy feeling is still taunting me albeit about a 3 in strenght where as mondays was 8.
Should I continue to self cope and manage this little buzz in the head thats now about every 3 hours or is it known that trying to get rid of that buzz without medication leads to worsening ?
My fear is the little buzz will catch me off guard and an anxiety attack will creeep in
Many thanks in advance and I apologise for my grammar et al im on a new machine lol
P.S I understand this is all subjective , im really seeking people who have experience of being in the same pos and whether after month or so they had wished they had took meds or even people who decided like I have so far to shrug my shoulders at the buzz and did they get through ok