am_f
25-08-14, 00:20
I'm writing this while trying to hold my tears from falling on my keyboard.
Back in March I developed a weird sensation in my trachea. I felt like I'm bound to suffocate and that my thyroid cartridges were popped out. I couldn't swallow,I couldn't sleep,I lost weight,my heart rate and blood pressure were super duper high. I wrote all my symptoms down on a diary. I went to the ER 4 times,they took blood tests,thyroid scan and I did a barium swallow,my nose was checked..no deviated septum or polyps.. all to which resulted normal. I couldn't do my final and most important exams because of this,I couldn't even go to the supermarket because I would feel like I'm going to stop breathing.
Around July this feeling eased and I praised the lord it was over..turns out it's not. I've been having a weird feeling right were my adenoids are placed(despite having them removed 10 years ago),I can't breathe well from my nose nor mouth,my neck lymph nodes are ALL swollen,I have fever,sleep apnea,I feel the need to touch my uvula to check if my trachea is closing or not,I breathe on my hand to see if my breathe subsided or not,constant headache in different areas and I gained weight due to being depressed and eating sweets all the time and not moving around. I can't take a full breathe,it hurts. I can't concentrate and i'm tired of doing nothing at home and being told I'm wasting my life away.
I'm only 18,I have no friends at all. I have no social life whatsoever,when I tried I was discarded. I feel too depressed to even sleep,I see a therapist,I am on 7.5 mg of valium and nothing seems to ease things. I feel horrible and I have this VERY VERY BAD FEELING OF DEATH. I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO DIE SINCE NO DOCTOR EVER GAVE ME AN ANSWER,I SEARCH ONLINE EVERY SECOND I CAN,I FEEL LIKE MY TRACHEA WILL COLLAPSE OR THAT I WILL DIE IN MY SLEEP,I DO NOT BELIEVE THIS IS MY HORRIBLE ANXIETY..I JUST FEEL IT..DEATH IS CHASING ME AND IT WILL FIND ME VERY VERY SOON..i'm in touch with my sixth sense.
I don't know why I posted this here,I just feel so miserable and I'm tired of my family worrying and not being able to understand me.
:weep::weep::weep::weep::weep:
Back in March I developed a weird sensation in my trachea. I felt like I'm bound to suffocate and that my thyroid cartridges were popped out. I couldn't swallow,I couldn't sleep,I lost weight,my heart rate and blood pressure were super duper high. I wrote all my symptoms down on a diary. I went to the ER 4 times,they took blood tests,thyroid scan and I did a barium swallow,my nose was checked..no deviated septum or polyps.. all to which resulted normal. I couldn't do my final and most important exams because of this,I couldn't even go to the supermarket because I would feel like I'm going to stop breathing.
Around July this feeling eased and I praised the lord it was over..turns out it's not. I've been having a weird feeling right were my adenoids are placed(despite having them removed 10 years ago),I can't breathe well from my nose nor mouth,my neck lymph nodes are ALL swollen,I have fever,sleep apnea,I feel the need to touch my uvula to check if my trachea is closing or not,I breathe on my hand to see if my breathe subsided or not,constant headache in different areas and I gained weight due to being depressed and eating sweets all the time and not moving around. I can't take a full breathe,it hurts. I can't concentrate and i'm tired of doing nothing at home and being told I'm wasting my life away.
I'm only 18,I have no friends at all. I have no social life whatsoever,when I tried I was discarded. I feel too depressed to even sleep,I see a therapist,I am on 7.5 mg of valium and nothing seems to ease things. I feel horrible and I have this VERY VERY BAD FEELING OF DEATH. I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO DIE SINCE NO DOCTOR EVER GAVE ME AN ANSWER,I SEARCH ONLINE EVERY SECOND I CAN,I FEEL LIKE MY TRACHEA WILL COLLAPSE OR THAT I WILL DIE IN MY SLEEP,I DO NOT BELIEVE THIS IS MY HORRIBLE ANXIETY..I JUST FEEL IT..DEATH IS CHASING ME AND IT WILL FIND ME VERY VERY SOON..i'm in touch with my sixth sense.
I don't know why I posted this here,I just feel so miserable and I'm tired of my family worrying and not being able to understand me.
:weep::weep::weep::weep::weep: