LosingIt!
25-08-14, 16:01
Hello! It's been years since I've posted here. I know this is a silly thing to say but I do hope everyone is well and thanks in advance to anyone who is so kind as to read or respond to my post. I can't tell whether my dreaded HA is back or whether I should be worried. In the past I've had it all, skin, breast, cervical, lung, lymphoma, leukaemia, heart attacks with multiple tests and all fine. I've had a turbulent few years losing my partner at 27. During and since I have not worried about my health. Now I'm 30, settled and terrified. I haven't checked my moles or had them checked (this used to be my big worry) for about 8 years. And since then I've loads of new ones. So I had a little look a month or so ago and am terrified of each and every one of them. None of them are bigger than a pencil eraser, none itchy or bleeding. But lots are funny shapes and some have different colours. I'm so scared that I can't even bring myself to make a derm appointment. This is taking over and ruining my whole life It's all I can think about at home and work, with constant checking and constant googling. I've w even started checking STRANGERS for any visible moles to see if I can find ones like mine!!! And blowing up and zooming I. On pics of my friends to look at theirs!! My head is totally screwed and I just cannot snap out of it. I really need some melanoma reassurance if anyone can help! Thanks so much and all the best! Xxx