b0yer
25-08-14, 21:30
I wanted to use this place as a journal for my thoughts and a place to see daily progress. I feel like there are a lot of threads that are created in a panicked state, but I wanted to start this thread to allow readers to see daily progress or how things can change one day at a time.
I am a 26 year old male in Boston, MA. I have a degree from college and work a steady job. I have a great family and friends as well as Pure O and GAD. 6 weeks or so ago I had an anxiety attack and I almost lost my loving gf because of it. After that I decided that I wanted to try meds for both OCD and anxiety. I went on prozac, but thoughts became really dark and I would have visions of suicide and violence. Part of that was OCD, but I did not want to stay on prozac as I could not sleep. I have been put on mirtazapine since and things have turned around along with talk therapy.
Anyways, that is besides the point. I want to use this thread as a journey. A place where I can write out my thoughts and a place where others can feel free to talk. We are all going to make it through this time. We just need to take it one day at a time.
---------- Post added at 16:30 ---------- Previous post was at 14:46 ----------
I wanted to post a few things that have helped me in the past few weeks get out of the depression and crap state that I was in. One thing that I did was FORCE myself to do something. When I was real bad, all I wanted to do was get comfortable in my own bed and watch tv and not be stressed or anxious (which I still was even when doing that). What I did was FORCE myself to do something. I worked on my resume, played a video game with my brother, went for a run, worked out. Eventually as I got able to sleep, things started turning around.
Mornings were really hard for me. I would wake up and have really dark thoughts, so what I started doing is telling myself that every day is a gift. Instead of looking at is like "ugh I gotta get up and go to work and do this or that", I looked at it as "Another day I get to wake up and go work where I could not have a job, earn a paycheck and be alive with my family". It is hard to do, but I pushed myself to get better at my job or learn a new skill, or even reach out to the new girl who is having a hard time with anxiety as well. Every day is a new day. So if you go to bed and have a crap day, tomorrow is new day. One you can beat.
Posting here helped a lot as well. Seeing other people going through what you are going through and reaching out always made me feel better. I probably will never meet anyone from this site, but it feels like a community. And in my darkest times, I can come here and be with people who know what it is like.
The best thing to do is occupy your mind. If you can stop thinking about anxiety or depression, or OCD, you can get and feel better. Focus on the task at hand. Worry about the other stuff later.
I am a 26 year old male in Boston, MA. I have a degree from college and work a steady job. I have a great family and friends as well as Pure O and GAD. 6 weeks or so ago I had an anxiety attack and I almost lost my loving gf because of it. After that I decided that I wanted to try meds for both OCD and anxiety. I went on prozac, but thoughts became really dark and I would have visions of suicide and violence. Part of that was OCD, but I did not want to stay on prozac as I could not sleep. I have been put on mirtazapine since and things have turned around along with talk therapy.
Anyways, that is besides the point. I want to use this thread as a journey. A place where I can write out my thoughts and a place where others can feel free to talk. We are all going to make it through this time. We just need to take it one day at a time.
---------- Post added at 16:30 ---------- Previous post was at 14:46 ----------
I wanted to post a few things that have helped me in the past few weeks get out of the depression and crap state that I was in. One thing that I did was FORCE myself to do something. When I was real bad, all I wanted to do was get comfortable in my own bed and watch tv and not be stressed or anxious (which I still was even when doing that). What I did was FORCE myself to do something. I worked on my resume, played a video game with my brother, went for a run, worked out. Eventually as I got able to sleep, things started turning around.
Mornings were really hard for me. I would wake up and have really dark thoughts, so what I started doing is telling myself that every day is a gift. Instead of looking at is like "ugh I gotta get up and go to work and do this or that", I looked at it as "Another day I get to wake up and go work where I could not have a job, earn a paycheck and be alive with my family". It is hard to do, but I pushed myself to get better at my job or learn a new skill, or even reach out to the new girl who is having a hard time with anxiety as well. Every day is a new day. So if you go to bed and have a crap day, tomorrow is new day. One you can beat.
Posting here helped a lot as well. Seeing other people going through what you are going through and reaching out always made me feel better. I probably will never meet anyone from this site, but it feels like a community. And in my darkest times, I can come here and be with people who know what it is like.
The best thing to do is occupy your mind. If you can stop thinking about anxiety or depression, or OCD, you can get and feel better. Focus on the task at hand. Worry about the other stuff later.