Soph18
31-08-14, 20:23
have had suuch a terrible week. Start of the week i was stressing because of family problems and friends having a go and being horrible. Then later in the week I had an emotional say as I had people putting me down all the time and theychad a cheek to say that I put ppeople down all the time and hurt them. I could never hurt a fly. Like most of you know that talk to me I hate seeing people hurt and upset so how does that work?
Friday I had my last volunteering day at my local boxing. It was so upsetting to leave because i have been there for a year and seen all the kids grow in confidence and grow as boxers and be more fit. I cllassed all the staff there as family as they were so support of me. They were there for me when i lost my step mom and made sure i felt part of the team.
Then the weekend came and i had a terrible time again. On saturday was upset and panicked because I felt like someone was going to get me and hurt me like I did in the past. I know it is silly as it happened in the past but i cant help it. I also got upset and cried for an hour straight about everything and when i was stopping something that i thought about would set me off again.
Then today I HAD 2 panic attacks. All because i was left alone with 2 lads and I was so scared. I thought either something would happen or I would see someone that i dont like. Then the other time we was walking etc and I had breathlessness and i went really dizzy so had to lie down on the grass. I didnt like it.
Sorry i went on and on abit. Hust need to get it of my chest. :(
Friday I had my last volunteering day at my local boxing. It was so upsetting to leave because i have been there for a year and seen all the kids grow in confidence and grow as boxers and be more fit. I cllassed all the staff there as family as they were so support of me. They were there for me when i lost my step mom and made sure i felt part of the team.
Then the weekend came and i had a terrible time again. On saturday was upset and panicked because I felt like someone was going to get me and hurt me like I did in the past. I know it is silly as it happened in the past but i cant help it. I also got upset and cried for an hour straight about everything and when i was stopping something that i thought about would set me off again.
Then today I HAD 2 panic attacks. All because i was left alone with 2 lads and I was so scared. I thought either something would happen or I would see someone that i dont like. Then the other time we was walking etc and I had breathlessness and i went really dizzy so had to lie down on the grass. I didnt like it.
Sorry i went on and on abit. Hust need to get it of my chest. :(