MrsO
31-08-14, 21:32
Hi Everyone!
So I'll get right into my story,
My anxiety started approx 5 years ago.
I had my first panic attack the morning after a night out with friends.
I got up that morning went to a market with my then bf and his mum, then came back home and went for a nap as I was still feeling slightly ropey.
I awoke a few times feeling like I hadn't been breathing, the 3rd time it really freaked me out and I ran round to my mums house in a complete state of panic, where I spiralled out of control into a full on panic attack (which I didn't know at the time! I thought was dying! you all know...) and ended up getting my mum to take me to hospital.
Once there they did an ecg and said that it was quite high and did some blood tests. By this time I was out of control and had to this day THE WORST panic attack ever, I didn't know where I was, I was talking gobbledegook, pins and needles, pain down my arm, chest pain, cramping hands. terrifying!
After going through all this for over an hour a nurse comes over and says "right your results all came back fine, you can go." No explanation, nothing.
To this day I think if they had explained to me that I had had a panic attack and took the time to tell me all about it I wouldn't be where I am today.
Since then I had a very bad year, having full on attacks sometimes twice a day, I lost a lot of weight and became completely miserable.
My partner at the time was completely useless and used to sit there and let me cry, giving me no support whatsoever.
Since I came out of that relationship it stopped, I would only get a panic attacks after a night out.
So I thought, right that's it, it was obviously the relationship I was unhappy with....no no no.
I then met my husband, who is perfect, I have no stress in my life at all, hes supportive with my anxiety, I basically have the perfect life.
BUT my anxiety has crept back again, present in my life everyday. I don't have full on panic attacks but just the day to day symptoms.
feeling out of it
tired
blurry eyes
very tense, sore muscles
dizzy
constant racing thoughts - I think so deeply about things like life and the horrible things that go on in the world.
difficulty concentrating
I am constantly thinking I have some sort of illness or disease or am going to drop down dead at any given minute.
I have become a really negative person and my self confidence has gone.
I have to sleep with relaxing music playing so I don't focus on what my body is doing when I go to bed each night.
I feel like life is passing me by, I have just had enough, its completely ruining my life, I feel like a fraud, I have no real reason to feel the way I do, ive been medically checked out more than once and im perfectly healthy!
I also have a loving supportive family and amazing friends.
I have read all the things on this website on particularly bad days and never realised there was a forum...so here I am :-)
So I'll get right into my story,
My anxiety started approx 5 years ago.
I had my first panic attack the morning after a night out with friends.
I got up that morning went to a market with my then bf and his mum, then came back home and went for a nap as I was still feeling slightly ropey.
I awoke a few times feeling like I hadn't been breathing, the 3rd time it really freaked me out and I ran round to my mums house in a complete state of panic, where I spiralled out of control into a full on panic attack (which I didn't know at the time! I thought was dying! you all know...) and ended up getting my mum to take me to hospital.
Once there they did an ecg and said that it was quite high and did some blood tests. By this time I was out of control and had to this day THE WORST panic attack ever, I didn't know where I was, I was talking gobbledegook, pins and needles, pain down my arm, chest pain, cramping hands. terrifying!
After going through all this for over an hour a nurse comes over and says "right your results all came back fine, you can go." No explanation, nothing.
To this day I think if they had explained to me that I had had a panic attack and took the time to tell me all about it I wouldn't be where I am today.
Since then I had a very bad year, having full on attacks sometimes twice a day, I lost a lot of weight and became completely miserable.
My partner at the time was completely useless and used to sit there and let me cry, giving me no support whatsoever.
Since I came out of that relationship it stopped, I would only get a panic attacks after a night out.
So I thought, right that's it, it was obviously the relationship I was unhappy with....no no no.
I then met my husband, who is perfect, I have no stress in my life at all, hes supportive with my anxiety, I basically have the perfect life.
BUT my anxiety has crept back again, present in my life everyday. I don't have full on panic attacks but just the day to day symptoms.
feeling out of it
tired
blurry eyes
very tense, sore muscles
dizzy
constant racing thoughts - I think so deeply about things like life and the horrible things that go on in the world.
difficulty concentrating
I am constantly thinking I have some sort of illness or disease or am going to drop down dead at any given minute.
I have become a really negative person and my self confidence has gone.
I have to sleep with relaxing music playing so I don't focus on what my body is doing when I go to bed each night.
I feel like life is passing me by, I have just had enough, its completely ruining my life, I feel like a fraud, I have no real reason to feel the way I do, ive been medically checked out more than once and im perfectly healthy!
I also have a loving supportive family and amazing friends.
I have read all the things on this website on particularly bad days and never realised there was a forum...so here I am :-)