Deborah81
09-09-14, 18:05
:doh: I am 22 female and I am suffering from really bad heath anxiety...
It all started a few months ago when I found a suspicious lump in my left breast and of course I used Dr Google to find the answer and he told me I had breast cancer.. I started freaking out because my nan had breast cancer ( she was 67) and it sent me on a spiral of anxiety... getting chills, sweating, running around the room trying to runaway from myself :weep: I just kept constantly checking my breast, palpitation etc and I felt like I was going to die, Got an appointment with the doctor then.. she reassured me that it was fine but still sent me to get it checked out just for my benefit ... The result was fine.. I had nothing to worry about... and then... the chain of events started too happen.. I got abit stressed back in May with myself job etc, And started to feel this weird empty feeling in my stomach and pains in my bowels... looked it up and lone behold I had stomach cancer.. I started freaking out running around the bedroom etc I insisted to my boyfriend that we've got to go to A&E.. After waiting several hours I finally sore a Doctor who re assured me it was IBS, she told me to see my GP for some anti depressants because they help calm down etc .... That calmed me down for 24 hours then I was up again panicking couldn't sleep so this went on for several week I think I saw about 11 doctors not forgetting nurses as well blood tests ultra sounds but nothing could convince me I was okay, It got to the point were I'd cry to my manager at work saying I need to go to the doctors and I'd be let out of work ( 4-5 times) with panic states... I even thought I was having a heart attack one time.. I was on my lunch break sat down to eat my food and my chest started to pound and my heart would skip beats, I went round the hospital then with a tingling sensation through out my body and shakes... They calmed me down and told me I was having a panic attack .... So anyway 5 months of this stress and anxiety has caused some other symptoms now.. that I DON'T believe the doctors is telling me the truth.. I now think I've got a brain tumour .. I went to A&E lastnight and the doctor done all the reaction, muscle etc tests, and also had a look in my ears and eyes and told me he was 98% sure that theres nothing to worry about because my reactions are fine my walking is fine and I passed all the tests ... but do I believe him? no ... I'm experiencing eye pain, headaches, and blurry vision ( I've been told that these are all down to stress as I've been hard on myself for 5 months and its showing through my body and also have ful) But I don't believe him.. its hard for me to stop worrying so the headaches will stay till I calm down etc .. and that calmed me down for 12 hours.. today I booked an emergency appointment with the doctor who said there was nothing to worry about ( checked my eyes,ears throat etc) told me there was fluid behind my eardrum which indicates sinusitis because my ears are puffy and a sore throat etc... but I feel like there was something I forgot to tell him... Iv'e been to atleast 15 doctors for diffrent things... I just want it to stop its breaking up my relationship I miss the happy meeeeee :( :( .. doctors keep telling me go and enjoy your life your young... but I cant let it go.. are there any tips anyone could give me please
It all started a few months ago when I found a suspicious lump in my left breast and of course I used Dr Google to find the answer and he told me I had breast cancer.. I started freaking out because my nan had breast cancer ( she was 67) and it sent me on a spiral of anxiety... getting chills, sweating, running around the room trying to runaway from myself :weep: I just kept constantly checking my breast, palpitation etc and I felt like I was going to die, Got an appointment with the doctor then.. she reassured me that it was fine but still sent me to get it checked out just for my benefit ... The result was fine.. I had nothing to worry about... and then... the chain of events started too happen.. I got abit stressed back in May with myself job etc, And started to feel this weird empty feeling in my stomach and pains in my bowels... looked it up and lone behold I had stomach cancer.. I started freaking out running around the bedroom etc I insisted to my boyfriend that we've got to go to A&E.. After waiting several hours I finally sore a Doctor who re assured me it was IBS, she told me to see my GP for some anti depressants because they help calm down etc .... That calmed me down for 24 hours then I was up again panicking couldn't sleep so this went on for several week I think I saw about 11 doctors not forgetting nurses as well blood tests ultra sounds but nothing could convince me I was okay, It got to the point were I'd cry to my manager at work saying I need to go to the doctors and I'd be let out of work ( 4-5 times) with panic states... I even thought I was having a heart attack one time.. I was on my lunch break sat down to eat my food and my chest started to pound and my heart would skip beats, I went round the hospital then with a tingling sensation through out my body and shakes... They calmed me down and told me I was having a panic attack .... So anyway 5 months of this stress and anxiety has caused some other symptoms now.. that I DON'T believe the doctors is telling me the truth.. I now think I've got a brain tumour .. I went to A&E lastnight and the doctor done all the reaction, muscle etc tests, and also had a look in my ears and eyes and told me he was 98% sure that theres nothing to worry about because my reactions are fine my walking is fine and I passed all the tests ... but do I believe him? no ... I'm experiencing eye pain, headaches, and blurry vision ( I've been told that these are all down to stress as I've been hard on myself for 5 months and its showing through my body and also have ful) But I don't believe him.. its hard for me to stop worrying so the headaches will stay till I calm down etc .. and that calmed me down for 12 hours.. today I booked an emergency appointment with the doctor who said there was nothing to worry about ( checked my eyes,ears throat etc) told me there was fluid behind my eardrum which indicates sinusitis because my ears are puffy and a sore throat etc... but I feel like there was something I forgot to tell him... Iv'e been to atleast 15 doctors for diffrent things... I just want it to stop its breaking up my relationship I miss the happy meeeeee :( :( .. doctors keep telling me go and enjoy your life your young... but I cant let it go.. are there any tips anyone could give me please