.Poppy.
10-09-14, 16:47
I wanted to share because I'm feeling a little ridiculously proud of myself right now.
I have applied for several jobs recently but I am usually terrified of answering my phone unless I know the number so I usually let it go to voicemail and deal with it then. But yesterday I got a call and made myself answer it right away. It was for an interview (that was today).
So, I went in for the interview. I *almost* missed it entirely - it was at a middle school and I ended up going to the wrong middle school and driving around trying to figure out why I was so lost. I finally found it right on time (which felt late to me) but I made myself go in anyway. I ended up having to wait a bit anyway. The interview was kind of choppy but better than some others I've had and even though I'm not totally sure I want this job (funny hours, bad pay) or if it will even be offered to me, I went and that feels HUGE!
Granted, I still have a long way to go. I have to figure out what I want to do school-wise and not only get started but break it to my family. I have to help with school screenings at the end of the month, which is difficult because I'm not great with kids. I'm in a constant state of anxiety as to "what am I going to do?". Funny - I was in the exact same boat last year at this time and told myself "at least by this time next year you'll know...". How wrong I was!
But I guess it's the little victories for now :)
I have applied for several jobs recently but I am usually terrified of answering my phone unless I know the number so I usually let it go to voicemail and deal with it then. But yesterday I got a call and made myself answer it right away. It was for an interview (that was today).
So, I went in for the interview. I *almost* missed it entirely - it was at a middle school and I ended up going to the wrong middle school and driving around trying to figure out why I was so lost. I finally found it right on time (which felt late to me) but I made myself go in anyway. I ended up having to wait a bit anyway. The interview was kind of choppy but better than some others I've had and even though I'm not totally sure I want this job (funny hours, bad pay) or if it will even be offered to me, I went and that feels HUGE!
Granted, I still have a long way to go. I have to figure out what I want to do school-wise and not only get started but break it to my family. I have to help with school screenings at the end of the month, which is difficult because I'm not great with kids. I'm in a constant state of anxiety as to "what am I going to do?". Funny - I was in the exact same boat last year at this time and told myself "at least by this time next year you'll know...". How wrong I was!
But I guess it's the little victories for now :)