rockoo
11-09-14, 08:30
Hey guys,
I've done pretty ok past year or so, not much anxious just episode from time to time. But still in the back of my head I always have that "what if" thought for every pinch, twich, sound, etc.
It all started about 10 years ago when, at 21, i suffered a oanic attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was panic attack. However the doctor there told me they've checked if I had heart attack just in case and said all was clear.
Ever since then my health anxiety began and I've been obssesed with first my heart for a few years, then difficulty breathing my lungs, and then my stomach and so on. For the past year I've been worried about lung cancer and is getting worse this fear now. I hate it it is ruining me mentally... I have went to emergency once for chest pain they took x ray and they said all good but something on the xray which they said nothing to worry about check it with your primary doctor in two weeks for a follow up x ray. Which came out good no problems. But that has stuck in my head and I cant shake that tought. Every I have to take a deep breath is lung cancer, every back pain is lung cancer. I used tomconstantly monitor for my heart rate now I contantly monitor my breathing, if im winded or out of breath, when I am I wonder if its normal or not.... I came down with a cold and been coughing for two days and yesterday i noticed when i breathed in i could hear a faint wheez or hiss.... Google says "in sever cases wheezing is heard on breathing in"... So i am pretty much dead....
I hate my life with this.... I'm affraid and scared. i'm 31 feeling like I'm 12... I keep thinking what if I never see my daughter grow up... Be there for her in her life....
I don't know what to do... I want to go do CT or MRI or whatever but ironically i'm mortified of tought they would find something....
Does anybody else feel anything like i feel?
I've done pretty ok past year or so, not much anxious just episode from time to time. But still in the back of my head I always have that "what if" thought for every pinch, twich, sound, etc.
It all started about 10 years ago when, at 21, i suffered a oanic attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was panic attack. However the doctor there told me they've checked if I had heart attack just in case and said all was clear.
Ever since then my health anxiety began and I've been obssesed with first my heart for a few years, then difficulty breathing my lungs, and then my stomach and so on. For the past year I've been worried about lung cancer and is getting worse this fear now. I hate it it is ruining me mentally... I have went to emergency once for chest pain they took x ray and they said all good but something on the xray which they said nothing to worry about check it with your primary doctor in two weeks for a follow up x ray. Which came out good no problems. But that has stuck in my head and I cant shake that tought. Every I have to take a deep breath is lung cancer, every back pain is lung cancer. I used tomconstantly monitor for my heart rate now I contantly monitor my breathing, if im winded or out of breath, when I am I wonder if its normal or not.... I came down with a cold and been coughing for two days and yesterday i noticed when i breathed in i could hear a faint wheez or hiss.... Google says "in sever cases wheezing is heard on breathing in"... So i am pretty much dead....
I hate my life with this.... I'm affraid and scared. i'm 31 feeling like I'm 12... I keep thinking what if I never see my daughter grow up... Be there for her in her life....
I don't know what to do... I want to go do CT or MRI or whatever but ironically i'm mortified of tought they would find something....
Does anybody else feel anything like i feel?