Gemmal
12-09-14, 00:00
Lately I just feel trapped . Trapped by my fears , lonely and helpless .
Ive had a fear of cancer for two years 8 months to the date and wow has it ruined my life .
Somehow I feel like this is part of the plan . does anyone feel like they deserve this ? This may a tad mad but I always feel like I've had a good run . No family history of illness or tragic events that maybe it's about time my luck ran out ?
I know it seems stupid but I've convinced myself I have lymphoma and that's that .
I also worry too much about other family members that something bad will happen
It's no way to live and I'm sick of it :(
Ive had a fear of cancer for two years 8 months to the date and wow has it ruined my life .
Somehow I feel like this is part of the plan . does anyone feel like they deserve this ? This may a tad mad but I always feel like I've had a good run . No family history of illness or tragic events that maybe it's about time my luck ran out ?
I know it seems stupid but I've convinced myself I have lymphoma and that's that .
I also worry too much about other family members that something bad will happen
It's no way to live and I'm sick of it :(