Cell block H fan
13-09-14, 09:35
I know I have to go there on monday & it's filling me with dread! I not only get health anxiety but anxiety of doctors. And it just had to be the most embarrassing place ever that I am seeing them about.
I posted about this months ago & should have gone then, things have got worse & I now think this problem has got worse.
Petrified of showing the doctor, I haven't even looked myself, I am too chicken to. But I know it's all swollen down there because I can feel myself walking weird!
I just know deep down I have one of the most embarrassing cancers possible & it's going to be awful :weep: I'll have to lie probably to people & say it's something else.
And if it's not something like that, & to do with menopause (period is now 2 weeks late again & no, not pregnant, not had sex for 2 years) then why can't I have just hot flushes like everyone else!! No not me, I have to get the freaky embarrassing symptoms!
Sorry, I am angry & venting. If I am going to get something I want problems north of my tummy not south!
I posted about this months ago & should have gone then, things have got worse & I now think this problem has got worse.
Petrified of showing the doctor, I haven't even looked myself, I am too chicken to. But I know it's all swollen down there because I can feel myself walking weird!
I just know deep down I have one of the most embarrassing cancers possible & it's going to be awful :weep: I'll have to lie probably to people & say it's something else.
And if it's not something like that, & to do with menopause (period is now 2 weeks late again & no, not pregnant, not had sex for 2 years) then why can't I have just hot flushes like everyone else!! No not me, I have to get the freaky embarrassing symptoms!
Sorry, I am angry & venting. If I am going to get something I want problems north of my tummy not south!