Rachh
15-09-14, 18:49
Hello,
I am new to this site. I have come to share my experience and also ask if anyone has a similar experience to mine really. Just so i dont feel so alone. I am aware anxiety has a multitude of feelings thoughts experiences.
I am 24 and i live in worcestershire. I have been 'driven by fear' for around 9 years to varying degrees and have only now started to completely recover after a mental breakdown last august. I see a psychologist once a week and i have been recovering by using claire weekes paul david and acceptance and commitment therapy approach.
Up until two weeks ago i was bed ridden. I wouldn't socialise or have any feelings bar depression. However now since my recovery is in swing ive started work again and although most of the time I'm torn to bits with thoughts i know what things to do and the right way to go to recover.
I'm really looking for a bit of a buddy with the experience i would like to share as I have googled away the days looking for someone who shares something similar.
I had relationship ocd when I was younger very badly and it badly affected my relationships with people around me to the point i havent let my guard down since.
I am happy to say i have a lovely partner who has supported me so well during my breakdown however i have this nagging problem which stems back to my rocd days.
It's when I'm sat eating at a table with him, most of the time since my breakdown i have been fine because I have been detached however since I'm starting to function its back. What happens is i get this sickly feeling like an overwhelmed feeling that he is near me and i need to get away. I will literally have to abandon my meal and leave him. It started happening when I was in bed however i dont seem to have the problem so much just when I'm eating and especially eating out.
I have a birthday meal coming up soon and it's his birthday so i feel like its a big deal because its about him and this causes me to feel extremely anxious. I dont know what it is.. Its so strange it's just a feeling of needing to escape quite badly and as I said stems from my rocd days however these experiences seem to still haunt me.
I am new to this site. I have come to share my experience and also ask if anyone has a similar experience to mine really. Just so i dont feel so alone. I am aware anxiety has a multitude of feelings thoughts experiences.
I am 24 and i live in worcestershire. I have been 'driven by fear' for around 9 years to varying degrees and have only now started to completely recover after a mental breakdown last august. I see a psychologist once a week and i have been recovering by using claire weekes paul david and acceptance and commitment therapy approach.
Up until two weeks ago i was bed ridden. I wouldn't socialise or have any feelings bar depression. However now since my recovery is in swing ive started work again and although most of the time I'm torn to bits with thoughts i know what things to do and the right way to go to recover.
I'm really looking for a bit of a buddy with the experience i would like to share as I have googled away the days looking for someone who shares something similar.
I had relationship ocd when I was younger very badly and it badly affected my relationships with people around me to the point i havent let my guard down since.
I am happy to say i have a lovely partner who has supported me so well during my breakdown however i have this nagging problem which stems back to my rocd days.
It's when I'm sat eating at a table with him, most of the time since my breakdown i have been fine because I have been detached however since I'm starting to function its back. What happens is i get this sickly feeling like an overwhelmed feeling that he is near me and i need to get away. I will literally have to abandon my meal and leave him. It started happening when I was in bed however i dont seem to have the problem so much just when I'm eating and especially eating out.
I have a birthday meal coming up soon and it's his birthday so i feel like its a big deal because its about him and this causes me to feel extremely anxious. I dont know what it is.. Its so strange it's just a feeling of needing to escape quite badly and as I said stems from my rocd days however these experiences seem to still haunt me.