SOBAY310
27-12-06, 19:52
It's been about 4 or 5 months since I've visited this forum. I want to tell everyone on this board that with some knowledge of what's going on with you, some good reading, and help amongst the members of this forum, you can continue on with life and overcome anxiety.
With that being said, it's time again that I turn to you all for help. I've been great for the past 5 months or so. I still have not had a panic attack for quite a while, but it's always lingering in my head that I'm going to have one. I suffer from constant thinking that I'm going to lose it, and a feeling of unease. Lately, I've been scared to death that I'm possibly getting depressed. Perhaps you can help me understand what I'm feeling or maybe you can relate my thoughts to what you are going through right now.
As I sit here today, here are the major problems facing me:
-Whenever I'm invited to do something, I think of my anxiety first, not how much fun it's going to be.
-I'm in school now, and I get down on myself because I'm afraid that my anxiety is going to get in the way of me becomnig a teacher. How can I possibly teach a class with an anxiety disorder?
-I get scared that my mind is going to wear down from all of these constant thoughts and worry. I'm afraid that this is all leading up to one big mental breakdown.
-I have a hard time just relaxing and reflecting on how good my life is. I see my beautiful wife and daugther and for some reason it feels like my head is so foggy that I don't have the full affect of life. It's like I'm missing out on something.
-I want to travel with my wife, she wants to travel, but I fear going somewhere else. I fear that it's going to trigger a panic attack.
-I fear that I'm getting depressed about always having to consider my anxiety. I look at old pictures and the first thing I think about was, wow, life without having to live with anxiety. I took that for granted.
-I always think I'm the exception to the rule. I'm going to be the one that breaks down, I'm going to be the one that the medicine doesn't work for, etc.
I thank everyone who helped me out before, and I'm looking forward to hearing everyone's thoughts on what I'm going through now too. Overall, I'm just trying to gain the confidence back in myself that I once had, and at times I feel like I cannot live my dreams with this thing we call anxiety.
All my best to everyone....
Joe
“If you think growing up is tough, then you're just not grown up enough.” - Steven Page, Barenaked Ladies
With that being said, it's time again that I turn to you all for help. I've been great for the past 5 months or so. I still have not had a panic attack for quite a while, but it's always lingering in my head that I'm going to have one. I suffer from constant thinking that I'm going to lose it, and a feeling of unease. Lately, I've been scared to death that I'm possibly getting depressed. Perhaps you can help me understand what I'm feeling or maybe you can relate my thoughts to what you are going through right now.
As I sit here today, here are the major problems facing me:
-Whenever I'm invited to do something, I think of my anxiety first, not how much fun it's going to be.
-I'm in school now, and I get down on myself because I'm afraid that my anxiety is going to get in the way of me becomnig a teacher. How can I possibly teach a class with an anxiety disorder?
-I get scared that my mind is going to wear down from all of these constant thoughts and worry. I'm afraid that this is all leading up to one big mental breakdown.
-I have a hard time just relaxing and reflecting on how good my life is. I see my beautiful wife and daugther and for some reason it feels like my head is so foggy that I don't have the full affect of life. It's like I'm missing out on something.
-I want to travel with my wife, she wants to travel, but I fear going somewhere else. I fear that it's going to trigger a panic attack.
-I fear that I'm getting depressed about always having to consider my anxiety. I look at old pictures and the first thing I think about was, wow, life without having to live with anxiety. I took that for granted.
-I always think I'm the exception to the rule. I'm going to be the one that breaks down, I'm going to be the one that the medicine doesn't work for, etc.
I thank everyone who helped me out before, and I'm looking forward to hearing everyone's thoughts on what I'm going through now too. Overall, I'm just trying to gain the confidence back in myself that I once had, and at times I feel like I cannot live my dreams with this thing we call anxiety.
All my best to everyone....
Joe
“If you think growing up is tough, then you're just not grown up enough.” - Steven Page, Barenaked Ladies