candie
28-12-06, 10:34
Hi everybody,
Firstly,i,m not very full of seasonal cheer so sorry if i appear all doom and gloom.
To cut a long story short,i feel really crap again.Keep thinking i'm getting somewhere and then over christmas ive just gone to pieces.Feel panicky constantly,general anxiety at an all time high and feel really physically unwell.Aches and pains everywhere,pains in my head constantly(googling 24/7) which is naturally making things worse but i can't help myself:(....
I'm literally at my wits end and i dont know what to do anymore.Why cant i be free of this horrible nightmare? When i'm feeling ok,i dont seem to fear the symptoms as much but when i feel crap(like now) i'm in a constant state of fear,which obviously makes things worse.I try to distract myself by doing things and going out,if only to my mums,but inside my body and mind feel frozen with fear...
I look at other people and envy what they have and how much they take for granted and wish i could be like them or even wish i was someone else.Its killing me,living like this because i can see no way out.15 years on and i still feel like i'm stuck at square one with each time being harder to get back up.Everything seems like such an effort and at the minute it seems so much easier to retreat in fear than to go out and face normal life,which i know i should do.
Sorry to sound so depressing,any advice would be much appreciated..
Love to you all,Candie xxx:(
Firstly,i,m not very full of seasonal cheer so sorry if i appear all doom and gloom.
To cut a long story short,i feel really crap again.Keep thinking i'm getting somewhere and then over christmas ive just gone to pieces.Feel panicky constantly,general anxiety at an all time high and feel really physically unwell.Aches and pains everywhere,pains in my head constantly(googling 24/7) which is naturally making things worse but i can't help myself:(....
I'm literally at my wits end and i dont know what to do anymore.Why cant i be free of this horrible nightmare? When i'm feeling ok,i dont seem to fear the symptoms as much but when i feel crap(like now) i'm in a constant state of fear,which obviously makes things worse.I try to distract myself by doing things and going out,if only to my mums,but inside my body and mind feel frozen with fear...
I look at other people and envy what they have and how much they take for granted and wish i could be like them or even wish i was someone else.Its killing me,living like this because i can see no way out.15 years on and i still feel like i'm stuck at square one with each time being harder to get back up.Everything seems like such an effort and at the minute it seems so much easier to retreat in fear than to go out and face normal life,which i know i should do.
Sorry to sound so depressing,any advice would be much appreciated..
Love to you all,Candie xxx:(