yiannis
20-09-14, 17:16
Hello, everybody!
My name is Yiannis and I am a 23-year-old from Greece. I posted some messages on here a few weeks ago, addressing my social anxiety and feelings of hopelessness I had at the time.
Since that, I started sessions with a therapist and it's been really helpful, from the first day even. I guess I just was at a point of my life that I was ready to get better. And so I did. Despite a very complicated situation I was in, I managed to get a few days that could be characterized as "normal" or almost anxiety-free.
I was so relieved that I had seen a light in my life, even if it was a small one. Now I knew there was something on the other side. But, in a series of unfortunate events, everything went downhill from there. I got tonsilitis and had to stay at bed for quite a few days and the problem was there was no bed to lay on, as I was evicted. I had to be taken in by a friend and the only who could do that was a friend of mine who always brings me down, in a variety of ways.
Long story short, it's been almost a month now, of almost only negative news for me. I'm still homeless, I stay at a different friend's house every other day, I had to give up my cat, the interview for a Master's degree is creeping up around the corner and no one seems to be able to help. And the scariest thought of all is that I just can't get over my ex. That leaves me alone, as I am so disappointed in myself and love that I can't even look at another man after what happened between the two of us.
I just feel alone, without a place to call my own, no money, no boyfriend. I can't even go back to my folks' house, as they live out of town and last time I visited I got such an awful panic attack that I am too scared to visit again anytime soon. How can I stay focused on the light that I found back in August? How can I persuade myself that there is another way in this life and, somehow, I caught a little glimpse of it. How can I remember life when I'm all alone and miserable?
Any advice is welcome, even small talk. I have to get my mind off things.
My name is Yiannis and I am a 23-year-old from Greece. I posted some messages on here a few weeks ago, addressing my social anxiety and feelings of hopelessness I had at the time.
Since that, I started sessions with a therapist and it's been really helpful, from the first day even. I guess I just was at a point of my life that I was ready to get better. And so I did. Despite a very complicated situation I was in, I managed to get a few days that could be characterized as "normal" or almost anxiety-free.
I was so relieved that I had seen a light in my life, even if it was a small one. Now I knew there was something on the other side. But, in a series of unfortunate events, everything went downhill from there. I got tonsilitis and had to stay at bed for quite a few days and the problem was there was no bed to lay on, as I was evicted. I had to be taken in by a friend and the only who could do that was a friend of mine who always brings me down, in a variety of ways.
Long story short, it's been almost a month now, of almost only negative news for me. I'm still homeless, I stay at a different friend's house every other day, I had to give up my cat, the interview for a Master's degree is creeping up around the corner and no one seems to be able to help. And the scariest thought of all is that I just can't get over my ex. That leaves me alone, as I am so disappointed in myself and love that I can't even look at another man after what happened between the two of us.
I just feel alone, without a place to call my own, no money, no boyfriend. I can't even go back to my folks' house, as they live out of town and last time I visited I got such an awful panic attack that I am too scared to visit again anytime soon. How can I stay focused on the light that I found back in August? How can I persuade myself that there is another way in this life and, somehow, I caught a little glimpse of it. How can I remember life when I'm all alone and miserable?
Any advice is welcome, even small talk. I have to get my mind off things.