lilol
22-09-14, 20:37
i just wanted to post my story in here, as catharsis i guess. my panic attacks began last summer and along with back pain, have been on and off ever since. the worst period until now was january and february of this year, when i had constant adrenaline coursing through me, even if i just went to the bank i was a mess for the rest of the day. i drank heavily during this period and my eye twitched for 8 weeks :(
i worked in a stressful industry until august. things hadn't got much better through the year, i was absolutely treading water the whole time. i've had a lot of neurological symptoms along with the back pain and have had mris, seen osteopaths and physiotherapists, had massages and acupuncture. all but the physio helped a bit, at the time.
in mid august, after two weeks of my right hand side seizing up at work (very scary), i had to quit my freelance job. two weeks at home didn't do me a huge amount of good - i was in a lot of pain and increasing panic - until one weekend when i ended up in a&e 4 times. the 4th time - a different hospital - i was convinced i was dying and they brought down the psych team, who scraped me off the ceiling. i felt like i was watching myself from above when it was happening. i couldn't sit down because of a sensation of electricity through me when i did.
i stayed at my aunt's for a couple of weeks until my dad drove me the 400 miles to my hometown a week ago. i'm on 30mg of citalopram (upping from 20mg which i started a couple of weeks ago) and i'm due to start cbt on wednesday. my back is really tense and i'm waking up numb a lot, which is triggering panic itself. i'm almost scared that writing all this will trigger something bad! i've been prescribed diazepam too, it freaks me out about taking them but they do help.
i'm off to bury myself in the success story forum for a while, but if anyone has any encouraging words they would be much appreciated!
i worked in a stressful industry until august. things hadn't got much better through the year, i was absolutely treading water the whole time. i've had a lot of neurological symptoms along with the back pain and have had mris, seen osteopaths and physiotherapists, had massages and acupuncture. all but the physio helped a bit, at the time.
in mid august, after two weeks of my right hand side seizing up at work (very scary), i had to quit my freelance job. two weeks at home didn't do me a huge amount of good - i was in a lot of pain and increasing panic - until one weekend when i ended up in a&e 4 times. the 4th time - a different hospital - i was convinced i was dying and they brought down the psych team, who scraped me off the ceiling. i felt like i was watching myself from above when it was happening. i couldn't sit down because of a sensation of electricity through me when i did.
i stayed at my aunt's for a couple of weeks until my dad drove me the 400 miles to my hometown a week ago. i'm on 30mg of citalopram (upping from 20mg which i started a couple of weeks ago) and i'm due to start cbt on wednesday. my back is really tense and i'm waking up numb a lot, which is triggering panic itself. i'm almost scared that writing all this will trigger something bad! i've been prescribed diazepam too, it freaks me out about taking them but they do help.
i'm off to bury myself in the success story forum for a while, but if anyone has any encouraging words they would be much appreciated!