Iwontgiveuphope
23-09-14, 09:40
I havent posted an introduction yet, so i hope its fine if i post it here. It will be short for now.
Im a 25 year old female, turning 26 in November. Ive had anxiety all my life. I was put on antidepressants for 4 years for fatigue and anxiety. It infact never worked and i always pleaded with the doctors to take me off, because it make me feel worse. Eventually,, 4 years later i got off these poisonous drugs. I immediately went into severe, protracted antidepressant withdrawal that has lasted to this day. I have a list of over 60 symptoms that i deal with daily. Ive been to many internists, various specialists etc they cant find anything seriously wrong, they dont believe that its from the antidepressants, but obviously it is as i was fine before stopping.
Anyways. Im really really very scared i have cancer of the ovaries, melanoma, breast cancer, stomach cancer, cervical cancer and liver cancer. Heck i think i might be one of the worst cases of health anxiety this board has ever seen. I also believe i have various other dieases and illnesses and quite frankly this has been gonig on for 25 months. I am fed up and i feel hopeless. I also fear for my mother. I am so scared she has cancer too.
I need help. Seriously.
Let me talk about the melanoma first becasue this is what prompted me to post here. I have various moles on my body. I am fair skinned, red hair and cant go in the sun much. I have this one mole on my neck. Its red, quite flat, and its been itchy for a while. I am freaking out badly. Google is my worst enemy. I am seriously a Google Pro as i seem to find all the rare articles about cancer horror stories that hasnt been viewed alot. Thats me. 24/7 Google freak. I search anything and everything about drugs, diseases, any illnesses. This in itself is a disease. Seriously. I wish i could just step away from Google.
Anyways, this mole is freaking me out. I am scared its melanoma.
I also think i have breast cancer. I have a large, hard very painful lump in my right breast, its been here for almost 2 years now. Ive been to various doctors. I recently went to a surgeon. They dont want to remove it and only did an FNA. It came back as a fibroadenoma but i am really really scared its cancer and they missed it.
I dont have the energy to type all the other fears i have. Its alot and would take me the whole day.
If its not cancer, its something else. It never stops. I am living in severe fear that i am going to get cancer and die early. Please i need help i cant live like this anymore.
Im a 25 year old female, turning 26 in November. Ive had anxiety all my life. I was put on antidepressants for 4 years for fatigue and anxiety. It infact never worked and i always pleaded with the doctors to take me off, because it make me feel worse. Eventually,, 4 years later i got off these poisonous drugs. I immediately went into severe, protracted antidepressant withdrawal that has lasted to this day. I have a list of over 60 symptoms that i deal with daily. Ive been to many internists, various specialists etc they cant find anything seriously wrong, they dont believe that its from the antidepressants, but obviously it is as i was fine before stopping.
Anyways. Im really really very scared i have cancer of the ovaries, melanoma, breast cancer, stomach cancer, cervical cancer and liver cancer. Heck i think i might be one of the worst cases of health anxiety this board has ever seen. I also believe i have various other dieases and illnesses and quite frankly this has been gonig on for 25 months. I am fed up and i feel hopeless. I also fear for my mother. I am so scared she has cancer too.
I need help. Seriously.
Let me talk about the melanoma first becasue this is what prompted me to post here. I have various moles on my body. I am fair skinned, red hair and cant go in the sun much. I have this one mole on my neck. Its red, quite flat, and its been itchy for a while. I am freaking out badly. Google is my worst enemy. I am seriously a Google Pro as i seem to find all the rare articles about cancer horror stories that hasnt been viewed alot. Thats me. 24/7 Google freak. I search anything and everything about drugs, diseases, any illnesses. This in itself is a disease. Seriously. I wish i could just step away from Google.
Anyways, this mole is freaking me out. I am scared its melanoma.
I also think i have breast cancer. I have a large, hard very painful lump in my right breast, its been here for almost 2 years now. Ive been to various doctors. I recently went to a surgeon. They dont want to remove it and only did an FNA. It came back as a fibroadenoma but i am really really scared its cancer and they missed it.
I dont have the energy to type all the other fears i have. Its alot and would take me the whole day.
If its not cancer, its something else. It never stops. I am living in severe fear that i am going to get cancer and die early. Please i need help i cant live like this anymore.