Mdeasha
25-09-14, 13:06
Recently I've been through a large lymphoma scare. Have been to see a haematologist, who was not worried at all. Told me that if she could have a node biopsied she would. But they are too small for that. Which she said was comforting in itself. I think I'm down from 90% thinking I have lymphoma to about 20%.
I started private CBT during this time, as I could not bare the waiting list. I've had 4 sessions which helped me a lot. But now I've gone back to uni and I'm finding it very hard without the weekly sessions. I know people say you shouldn't become reliant on CBT, but it's so hard not to be. I can feel the despair and depression coming back some days and it scares me. I don't want to go back to the way it was.
Being on my own is horrible, feel so isolated and it probably doesn't help as it gives me more time to convince myself there's something wrong. As with most of my posts I don't know what I'm expecting in the way of replies. I just needed an outlet I guess.
Thanks for reading
---------- Post added at 13:06 ---------- Previous post was at 13:04 ----------
Oh and when I say it was a large scare, nobody else thought that, including all the medical experts, just me.
I started private CBT during this time, as I could not bare the waiting list. I've had 4 sessions which helped me a lot. But now I've gone back to uni and I'm finding it very hard without the weekly sessions. I know people say you shouldn't become reliant on CBT, but it's so hard not to be. I can feel the despair and depression coming back some days and it scares me. I don't want to go back to the way it was.
Being on my own is horrible, feel so isolated and it probably doesn't help as it gives me more time to convince myself there's something wrong. As with most of my posts I don't know what I'm expecting in the way of replies. I just needed an outlet I guess.
Thanks for reading
---------- Post added at 13:06 ---------- Previous post was at 13:04 ----------
Oh and when I say it was a large scare, nobody else thought that, including all the medical experts, just me.