gauss101
25-09-14, 18:31
Over the past eighteen months, I've been struggling with anxiety. Sometimes it gets better, sometimes worse. I teach maths to adults and, up till now, loved my job. The problem is that when you're in the middle of explaining something and a panic attack hits, it's living death trying to carry on. I know it will pass and I keep going to the end of the class. The problem is that I know I have to do it again, and again, and again. I get to the point of everything becoming pointless because all I'm trying to do is get from one end of the session to the other.
I'm off work, at the moment, for the second time because the anxiety is there 27/7. No relief, despite medication, and the blackness of the future, such that it is. I'm sure I'm not the only person on here that's considered ending everything but I know the devastation it would leave behind. So, you end up trapped in your own personal hell.
My meds have been changed and I'm hoping, yet again, that it will give me the strength to get back and do what I do best. Anyway, to get to the point I've been advised to have one to one CBT therapy. Is there any hope I can put in this, or is it just going to be a ream of self affirmations and deep breathing? Sorry if I sound cynical but I feel so tired of it all, I'm starting to doubt everything. Thanks and with love. ;o)))
I'm off work, at the moment, for the second time because the anxiety is there 27/7. No relief, despite medication, and the blackness of the future, such that it is. I'm sure I'm not the only person on here that's considered ending everything but I know the devastation it would leave behind. So, you end up trapped in your own personal hell.
My meds have been changed and I'm hoping, yet again, that it will give me the strength to get back and do what I do best. Anyway, to get to the point I've been advised to have one to one CBT therapy. Is there any hope I can put in this, or is it just going to be a ream of self affirmations and deep breathing? Sorry if I sound cynical but I feel so tired of it all, I'm starting to doubt everything. Thanks and with love. ;o)))