strlrd
28-09-14, 23:17
I had my first panic attack back in late March. After that it was downhill, I was always anticipating it was going to happen again and I would constantly worry about my health. I've gone from I thought I had a brain tumor to heart problems. In early April I was prescribed Zoloft and for the first 2 weeks or so the symptoms were awful. My cognition seemed to be reduced, I had been pretty depressed and disassociated with everything around me. Anything I thought could be wrong somehow seemed like I had symptoms of. I barely left my room. I was so worried about health conditions I thought I had all day. I had blood tests done and EKGs and nothing was found.
Skipped to June/July I felt much better, not 100% but definitely happier and functioning. I wasn't so worried about health problems as much but it was still in the back of my mind, and I still had frequent worries about my heart. By August I was barely taking the sertraline at all and for September I can't recall taking it once. This past Wednesday I had my first panic attack in 2 months, I had almost forgotten what it was like. I was certain I was dying. I was home alone so it got very out of control and ever since I seem like I'm back to the way I was back in early April. I had a few zolofts left and started taking them again that day. I had been breaking up the pills in half to stretch them out longer. The past couple of days I have been fighting anxiety, getting those thoughts back, and from taking the pills feel pretty disassociated with everything else and feel kind of hazy in my head.
Should I be concerned? Can this happen all because of anxiety? I tried weening myself off the pills and thought I was doing a good job. I mean I only had 3 months worth of refills but I thought maybe I could have been over it. I haven't been back to the doctor since around May. I want to make an appointment to see if I should get back on Zoloft. It seemed that have been working besides the fact I had horrible side effects for 2 weeks maybe a little longer. But that could have been amplified by the severe anxiety I was feeling, right? I'm definitely not as panicky as I was 4 months ago dealing with this, but obviously I'm still very concerned and a little scared. I hate having the feeling of impending doom, it is really debilitating. I start a new job tomorrow and I can't have this ruining it.
I will say that during this entire time I have developed a kind of tick I guess by checking my pulse very frequently and the last week and a half had have dreams about having panic attacks, so I guess that should have been my first guess I'm not quite over it.
---------- Post added at 17:17 ---------- Previous post was at 16:51 ----------
I don't know if this is the right forum to be posting in but any replies are appreciated. I just feel really confused and worried at the moment. I was wondering if anyone else had similar experiences? And if it could just be the lack of medication/getting back on it that is causing these feelings.
Skipped to June/July I felt much better, not 100% but definitely happier and functioning. I wasn't so worried about health problems as much but it was still in the back of my mind, and I still had frequent worries about my heart. By August I was barely taking the sertraline at all and for September I can't recall taking it once. This past Wednesday I had my first panic attack in 2 months, I had almost forgotten what it was like. I was certain I was dying. I was home alone so it got very out of control and ever since I seem like I'm back to the way I was back in early April. I had a few zolofts left and started taking them again that day. I had been breaking up the pills in half to stretch them out longer. The past couple of days I have been fighting anxiety, getting those thoughts back, and from taking the pills feel pretty disassociated with everything else and feel kind of hazy in my head.
Should I be concerned? Can this happen all because of anxiety? I tried weening myself off the pills and thought I was doing a good job. I mean I only had 3 months worth of refills but I thought maybe I could have been over it. I haven't been back to the doctor since around May. I want to make an appointment to see if I should get back on Zoloft. It seemed that have been working besides the fact I had horrible side effects for 2 weeks maybe a little longer. But that could have been amplified by the severe anxiety I was feeling, right? I'm definitely not as panicky as I was 4 months ago dealing with this, but obviously I'm still very concerned and a little scared. I hate having the feeling of impending doom, it is really debilitating. I start a new job tomorrow and I can't have this ruining it.
I will say that during this entire time I have developed a kind of tick I guess by checking my pulse very frequently and the last week and a half had have dreams about having panic attacks, so I guess that should have been my first guess I'm not quite over it.
---------- Post added at 17:17 ---------- Previous post was at 16:51 ----------
I don't know if this is the right forum to be posting in but any replies are appreciated. I just feel really confused and worried at the moment. I was wondering if anyone else had similar experiences? And if it could just be the lack of medication/getting back on it that is causing these feelings.