happyone
30-12-06, 10:46
Does anyone carry out things that you know to be destructive or, at the least, not helpful?
What I am thinking of is, I talk to myself. (not necessarily out loud, sometimes just in my head) That might not sound like a big deal but I look for opportunities to be alone a LOT of the time. I had a babysitter for my youngest last night, hubby was working and instead of making a nice little night for me and my oldest, I was desperate to get her to bed so I could talk out the same stuff over and over again.[V] Usually hypothetical conversations. In the car I take a long way home, put off the radio and talk to myself. I go to bed early so I can talk to myself. Just now, I left daughter watching TV so I could have a bath to talk to myself.
I know this doesn’t help and I know it doesn’t get the anxiety sorted out, I just go round and round in circles. Yet if I don’t do it, I get all anxious and start to miss me![:I] I know it helps to keep busy, but I almost don’t want to for fear of not having my thoughts.
I liken it to smoking. People know it is not good for them, yet they need a ciggie.
Anyone relate to this?
happyone
"Today is the day before tomorrow. Tomorrow is another day." wisdom of my daughter!
What I am thinking of is, I talk to myself. (not necessarily out loud, sometimes just in my head) That might not sound like a big deal but I look for opportunities to be alone a LOT of the time. I had a babysitter for my youngest last night, hubby was working and instead of making a nice little night for me and my oldest, I was desperate to get her to bed so I could talk out the same stuff over and over again.[V] Usually hypothetical conversations. In the car I take a long way home, put off the radio and talk to myself. I go to bed early so I can talk to myself. Just now, I left daughter watching TV so I could have a bath to talk to myself.
I know this doesn’t help and I know it doesn’t get the anxiety sorted out, I just go round and round in circles. Yet if I don’t do it, I get all anxious and start to miss me![:I] I know it helps to keep busy, but I almost don’t want to for fear of not having my thoughts.
I liken it to smoking. People know it is not good for them, yet they need a ciggie.
Anyone relate to this?
happyone
"Today is the day before tomorrow. Tomorrow is another day." wisdom of my daughter!