MrPom
13-10-14, 09:15
Helloo, I have just joined today because my sister recommended me to :).
I just feel I need reassurance and someone to talk to about my very specific phobia. Since I was about 7 I have had a phobia of vomiting blood. Such a bad phobia that I would convince myself it would happen, didn't eat anything red for over 5 years so if I was sick I would know it was blood no food. It led
On to just a general fear of being sick I had to drop out of uni because I spent too much time hiding in the house or worrying. I'm 24 now and I was doing really well and had been reasonably worry free for over a year.
But this Ebola in the news and potential spread to the uk has literally reversed all of the therapy and CBT I have had over the years. One day When I was about 14 I was googling things that would cause you to vomit blood. (Which I shouldn't have) and I came across Ebola and other similar hemorrhagic fevers. I then went on to use the fact that Ebola was rare and only in remote parts of Africa to reassure myself. I used Ebola as a therapy to remind myself i would never get it and am fine and nothing would be as bad as that. But now it's become a possibility I just don't know what to do with myself! This weekend I came down with the flu I have had fever and chills and a cough and headache. I know that really there is no chance I have Ebola but I keep having panic attacks and thinking but what if that person I say next to on the train had it and now I do. I don't believe that it can be so hard to catch if a US nurse in full protective gear managed to catch it. Surely if someone coughed on their hand then touched a handle it would then have Ebola on it from saliva? This is really frustrating me because I want to lead a normal life free from anxiety but I don't ever see that happening. :( sorry it's such a long post I just needed to get it out. X:scared15:
I just feel I need reassurance and someone to talk to about my very specific phobia. Since I was about 7 I have had a phobia of vomiting blood. Such a bad phobia that I would convince myself it would happen, didn't eat anything red for over 5 years so if I was sick I would know it was blood no food. It led
On to just a general fear of being sick I had to drop out of uni because I spent too much time hiding in the house or worrying. I'm 24 now and I was doing really well and had been reasonably worry free for over a year.
But this Ebola in the news and potential spread to the uk has literally reversed all of the therapy and CBT I have had over the years. One day When I was about 14 I was googling things that would cause you to vomit blood. (Which I shouldn't have) and I came across Ebola and other similar hemorrhagic fevers. I then went on to use the fact that Ebola was rare and only in remote parts of Africa to reassure myself. I used Ebola as a therapy to remind myself i would never get it and am fine and nothing would be as bad as that. But now it's become a possibility I just don't know what to do with myself! This weekend I came down with the flu I have had fever and chills and a cough and headache. I know that really there is no chance I have Ebola but I keep having panic attacks and thinking but what if that person I say next to on the train had it and now I do. I don't believe that it can be so hard to catch if a US nurse in full protective gear managed to catch it. Surely if someone coughed on their hand then touched a handle it would then have Ebola on it from saliva? This is really frustrating me because I want to lead a normal life free from anxiety but I don't ever see that happening. :( sorry it's such a long post I just needed to get it out. X:scared15: