moonwalker
14-10-14, 21:11
Hello everyone! Im sitting in my bed and absolutely dreading my ultrasound to my testis tomorrow afternoon. By the way, I've lurked around here for years so thank you for all the support even if I dont know who you are :)
Ive suffered from health anxiety since 12 yo (now 27) and my fear of cancer, which ive had since 12 disappeared at 25 to be substituted by fear of mental illness until 2 weeks ago when it was replaced back by cancer with a vengeance.
2 weeks ago I got up from the sofa and my right testicle ached a little bit. The next day i went to see the doc even though it was only aching in certain positions. Doc said 'yup, very common infection, your epididymis is a bit swollen and your lymph nodes are a bit swollen too'. He said its very common and prescribed 10 day course of antibiotics. By the next day the pain was completely gone although i made sure i checked my damn balls 10-15 times a day until, well, today.
I spoke to my GP back home who tried to reassure me its not cancer and told me to stop checking as it can become inflamed. Anyway, so i checked again earlier on and i dont have any lumps or enlargement of the actual testicle (never did anyway) although the epididymis does feel tender (as its meant to anyway?) although i cant tell exactly whether it remains swollen.
I have some back pain too and leg pain although i commute to work every day for 5 hours per day sitting on a bus since May.
Im dreading tomorrow, all i can think about is the doctor telling me i have cancer and need to start chemo ASAP.
Any help would be appreciated. Thanks guys. I've looked at symptoms of testicular cancer over 100 times and nothing seems to reassure me. There always that what if.
Ive suffered from health anxiety since 12 yo (now 27) and my fear of cancer, which ive had since 12 disappeared at 25 to be substituted by fear of mental illness until 2 weeks ago when it was replaced back by cancer with a vengeance.
2 weeks ago I got up from the sofa and my right testicle ached a little bit. The next day i went to see the doc even though it was only aching in certain positions. Doc said 'yup, very common infection, your epididymis is a bit swollen and your lymph nodes are a bit swollen too'. He said its very common and prescribed 10 day course of antibiotics. By the next day the pain was completely gone although i made sure i checked my damn balls 10-15 times a day until, well, today.
I spoke to my GP back home who tried to reassure me its not cancer and told me to stop checking as it can become inflamed. Anyway, so i checked again earlier on and i dont have any lumps or enlargement of the actual testicle (never did anyway) although the epididymis does feel tender (as its meant to anyway?) although i cant tell exactly whether it remains swollen.
I have some back pain too and leg pain although i commute to work every day for 5 hours per day sitting on a bus since May.
Im dreading tomorrow, all i can think about is the doctor telling me i have cancer and need to start chemo ASAP.
Any help would be appreciated. Thanks guys. I've looked at symptoms of testicular cancer over 100 times and nothing seems to reassure me. There always that what if.