d3niro
01-01-07, 13:03
Hiya,
My anxiety has come out very strong over the last 3-4 months. I really don't know how to cope with it anymore.
I get embarrased by it a lot.... i'm very confused with it too.
For example:
I am seeing this guy who i really like, when i'm in his company i'm relaxed and happy, the minute he is not by my side i get really nervous and i start to get doubts about being with him.
Last night he was planning on spending the night, before he decide to come round i was unsure on whether to cancel on him, i started feeling all my nerves again... i didn't want to see him, but didnt have the heart to let him down.
So i let him come round, when he was in my company i was fine, i was comfortable. I enjoyed his company. Anyway.......it got to about 4am and i was up all night coughing with this damn cold i have, because i was up all night coughing i started to get paraniod that he wasn't sleeping,and that he would be thinking.....would to shut the hell up i'm tryin to sleep....but he didnt say a word and was snoring away... i wasn't sleeping and my mind started to wonder again, feeling uncomfortable about him being here, to the point of me waking him up and telling him to go home because i didnt feel to good.
Once he left i knew i could get a better nights sleep....because i didnt have to worry about waking him with my coughing.
Woke up about 8:30 this morning full of nerves again....feeling sick.....the first thought on my mind was him.
Then i started thinkin again....i can't do this i can't see him...... but i know i like him..... but something is stopping me. i have attempted many times to end this relationship and the poor guy puts up with this everytime....
He doesn't know about my anxiety he just thinks i'm fed up with this relationship everytime. I really dont know what to do....i can't stop crying because i'm so confused about him. i don't really trust him...which is 1 good reason not to be with him. but i don't want to hurt him and look a fool at the same time with ending it. plus i don't think i could handle the pain right now with the split....but i know the quicker i'm over him the quicker this anxiety will stop.
What do i do?? why am i feeling these nerves, 1 min i want him the next i don't. Its even got to the point of ruining my social life
My anxiety has come out very strong over the last 3-4 months. I really don't know how to cope with it anymore.
I get embarrased by it a lot.... i'm very confused with it too.
For example:
I am seeing this guy who i really like, when i'm in his company i'm relaxed and happy, the minute he is not by my side i get really nervous and i start to get doubts about being with him.
Last night he was planning on spending the night, before he decide to come round i was unsure on whether to cancel on him, i started feeling all my nerves again... i didn't want to see him, but didnt have the heart to let him down.
So i let him come round, when he was in my company i was fine, i was comfortable. I enjoyed his company. Anyway.......it got to about 4am and i was up all night coughing with this damn cold i have, because i was up all night coughing i started to get paraniod that he wasn't sleeping,and that he would be thinking.....would to shut the hell up i'm tryin to sleep....but he didnt say a word and was snoring away... i wasn't sleeping and my mind started to wonder again, feeling uncomfortable about him being here, to the point of me waking him up and telling him to go home because i didnt feel to good.
Once he left i knew i could get a better nights sleep....because i didnt have to worry about waking him with my coughing.
Woke up about 8:30 this morning full of nerves again....feeling sick.....the first thought on my mind was him.
Then i started thinkin again....i can't do this i can't see him...... but i know i like him..... but something is stopping me. i have attempted many times to end this relationship and the poor guy puts up with this everytime....
He doesn't know about my anxiety he just thinks i'm fed up with this relationship everytime. I really dont know what to do....i can't stop crying because i'm so confused about him. i don't really trust him...which is 1 good reason not to be with him. but i don't want to hurt him and look a fool at the same time with ending it. plus i don't think i could handle the pain right now with the split....but i know the quicker i'm over him the quicker this anxiety will stop.
What do i do?? why am i feeling these nerves, 1 min i want him the next i don't. Its even got to the point of ruining my social life