Ollie28
21-10-14, 20:13
Hi I've tried to stay away from the subject and the site but tbh it's not made any difference,
I've been told I'm suffering from a form of dissociation possibly psycological related although I am waiting to see a neurologist as the pain I'm in & the lack of mental clarity is driving me insane! I don't know what to believe no more, I litrally feel like my heads in a vice 24/7 being crushed! If I try to think outwards let's say about what I can do this weekend it physically hurts,
I can't take the lack of mental clarity no more, the forgetfulness, the confussion, the lack of awareness and the disconnection, it feels like I have to think everything over before I can do it, even then 2 minutes later I forget what it was.
It feels to me nothing exists, I mean I have do mentally think about it instead of just feeling it without to much effort.
It's getting me in a deep dark hole, I feel like I'm becoming distant from my wife and kids and it's killing mentally killing destroying me.
It feels like I'm fighting to keep hold of a normal life instead of it just feeling natural that's it's there and I can get on with life like normal. Everyday is a mental struggle it's draining me to the point where I'm close to just giving up my job as I'm struggling to do things I have done for 20 years without any effort.
Does anyone else feel like this? Is this normal?
I've been out on trazadone 4 days now and I feel like crap.
Anyone else suffer with dissociation?
---------- Post added at 20:13 ---------- Previous post was at 20:05 ----------
List of things I've had to write down in my phone when I go to see the Nero because I feel thick and can't remember anything when it comes to it...
Also the last few days I've been on some sort of hyporactive thing. I've been going to work grafting all day coming home and just carrying on until 9 at night it feels like my brain dosnt have that switch off button like you know you are tired and done enough I just had to carry on and on despite how tired my body was. I felt so hyped I didn't care about any one or anything. I knew how I felt was wrong not me and I should be worrying but it was like I couldn't no matter how much I tried to connect with my feelings I couldn't find anything. It's scary....
Ild be greatfull if anyone can help with these I'm experiencing... Sorry if there abit miss spelt there just copied & pasted from notes out my phone
- Lack of mental clarity 24/7 can't think at all, it physically hurts to think.
-Body shuts down like the life is taken out of me,I can't talk or know what I'm doing
-when I talk to myself in my mind it feels distant no mind power.
-Little girls birthday I knew it if someone was to ask me but wasn't aware so kept forgetting like it's not existing
- panicked felt like I was dying.
- Extreme fear prickling feeling physically hurts have to take deep breathes to relieve the sensation.
Makes me feel like I'm going crazy.
-Feel like my mind and body is pulling me inwards and away from everything and I'm fighting to keep alive and thinking like normal and outwards.
-Bright light hurts my eyes courses pain in the back of them.
don't feel aware of where I am or what I'm doing & just done 24/7
- struggle problem solving like I don't have the intelligence to figure out what it is I'm ment to do or how to do it. Like my job I've done for 20 years.
- complete lack of brain power to the point I Feel thick
- I can't take anything in feels like my brain is full,
- feel like I'm fading away like im losing my mind power that makes me feel me & like I'm becoming distant from everyone and thing but have no control over it but know it's happening, scares me.
- Pushing down on on my nose & face like pressure
- Excessive sweating don't feel we're I am or feel aware of anything.
Electric shocks through my head & body
Prickling, crawling under my skin Shaking.
- Tickling sensation under my skin Makes me quiver.
- Struggle to talk. Make sentacnces, find words, follow up on conversations & questions,
- lose track of what I'm trying to tell someone end up getting lost
- intelligently like I can't take in what's being said to me or know how to reply,
- Legs go numb n body feels strange I can't function right or talk proper slur words like I don't have the power to say them
- yawning helps, somehow relives my symptoms.
- Ears click open like there blocked.
- When I breath in heavy through my nose my ears block up
Yawning n clicking open clearer
Thick!
Stupid!
Vunrable
No mental intellegence.
Harder I work the worse the feeling of don't sense where I am gets.
The least I do the more I feel the sensations of fear, prickle, lost & panic.
Pain in my head 24-7 changes place and feeling.
Can't put time together, feel lost in time, no awaress of how longs past or what time of day it is.
, if texting my mind can't keep up with what I'm trying to say.
Strange behaviour, find I'm doing things with no reason or thought behind it.
Sometimes I Don't feel anything, if I was told my mum had died I would think that's bad but would t have the feelings of awareness to emotionaly act or feel for it.
I've been told I'm suffering from a form of dissociation possibly psycological related although I am waiting to see a neurologist as the pain I'm in & the lack of mental clarity is driving me insane! I don't know what to believe no more, I litrally feel like my heads in a vice 24/7 being crushed! If I try to think outwards let's say about what I can do this weekend it physically hurts,
I can't take the lack of mental clarity no more, the forgetfulness, the confussion, the lack of awareness and the disconnection, it feels like I have to think everything over before I can do it, even then 2 minutes later I forget what it was.
It feels to me nothing exists, I mean I have do mentally think about it instead of just feeling it without to much effort.
It's getting me in a deep dark hole, I feel like I'm becoming distant from my wife and kids and it's killing mentally killing destroying me.
It feels like I'm fighting to keep hold of a normal life instead of it just feeling natural that's it's there and I can get on with life like normal. Everyday is a mental struggle it's draining me to the point where I'm close to just giving up my job as I'm struggling to do things I have done for 20 years without any effort.
Does anyone else feel like this? Is this normal?
I've been out on trazadone 4 days now and I feel like crap.
Anyone else suffer with dissociation?
---------- Post added at 20:13 ---------- Previous post was at 20:05 ----------
List of things I've had to write down in my phone when I go to see the Nero because I feel thick and can't remember anything when it comes to it...
Also the last few days I've been on some sort of hyporactive thing. I've been going to work grafting all day coming home and just carrying on until 9 at night it feels like my brain dosnt have that switch off button like you know you are tired and done enough I just had to carry on and on despite how tired my body was. I felt so hyped I didn't care about any one or anything. I knew how I felt was wrong not me and I should be worrying but it was like I couldn't no matter how much I tried to connect with my feelings I couldn't find anything. It's scary....
Ild be greatfull if anyone can help with these I'm experiencing... Sorry if there abit miss spelt there just copied & pasted from notes out my phone
- Lack of mental clarity 24/7 can't think at all, it physically hurts to think.
-Body shuts down like the life is taken out of me,I can't talk or know what I'm doing
-when I talk to myself in my mind it feels distant no mind power.
-Little girls birthday I knew it if someone was to ask me but wasn't aware so kept forgetting like it's not existing
- panicked felt like I was dying.
- Extreme fear prickling feeling physically hurts have to take deep breathes to relieve the sensation.
Makes me feel like I'm going crazy.
-Feel like my mind and body is pulling me inwards and away from everything and I'm fighting to keep alive and thinking like normal and outwards.
-Bright light hurts my eyes courses pain in the back of them.
don't feel aware of where I am or what I'm doing & just done 24/7
- struggle problem solving like I don't have the intelligence to figure out what it is I'm ment to do or how to do it. Like my job I've done for 20 years.
- complete lack of brain power to the point I Feel thick
- I can't take anything in feels like my brain is full,
- feel like I'm fading away like im losing my mind power that makes me feel me & like I'm becoming distant from everyone and thing but have no control over it but know it's happening, scares me.
- Pushing down on on my nose & face like pressure
- Excessive sweating don't feel we're I am or feel aware of anything.
Electric shocks through my head & body
Prickling, crawling under my skin Shaking.
- Tickling sensation under my skin Makes me quiver.
- Struggle to talk. Make sentacnces, find words, follow up on conversations & questions,
- lose track of what I'm trying to tell someone end up getting lost
- intelligently like I can't take in what's being said to me or know how to reply,
- Legs go numb n body feels strange I can't function right or talk proper slur words like I don't have the power to say them
- yawning helps, somehow relives my symptoms.
- Ears click open like there blocked.
- When I breath in heavy through my nose my ears block up
Yawning n clicking open clearer
Thick!
Stupid!
Vunrable
No mental intellegence.
Harder I work the worse the feeling of don't sense where I am gets.
The least I do the more I feel the sensations of fear, prickle, lost & panic.
Pain in my head 24-7 changes place and feeling.
Can't put time together, feel lost in time, no awaress of how longs past or what time of day it is.
, if texting my mind can't keep up with what I'm trying to say.
Strange behaviour, find I'm doing things with no reason or thought behind it.
Sometimes I Don't feel anything, if I was told my mum had died I would think that's bad but would t have the feelings of awareness to emotionaly act or feel for it.