downwardspiral
24-10-14, 15:31
Hi all,
I am new here. I have just realised that my agoraphobia, which was the bane of my life in my teens and twenties is making a come back.
Here's my situation. I have a long term illness which prevents me from having a 9 to 5 job, so I started working from home over 10 years ago and I get on with that fine. I have been able to go out when I really have to, on my own, but I find it a little daunting, I am ok with company now, but I used to have major panics when I was younger, even when I went out with someone - which is why it was kind of gone.
Now, part of my business was offered a spot in a shared shop in town, which means it will give my business more exposure and more income, so that's great. I only have to contribute a few hours a week, I am looking forward to it. But when I think about it, that old feeling comes back, I feel that tingling, throat tightening, I feel dizzy and numb. I know I won't be alone but I have been getting so comfy working in my own little bubble. Now I have to go out there, I want to do this but I am also scared. Will it get better once I've taken the plunge? I am hoping that going every week will help things get easier, maybe the bad feelings and the fear will go away? I worry I will make excuses not to go and I hate feeling like this, I don't want this to control me and stop me.
I am new here. I have just realised that my agoraphobia, which was the bane of my life in my teens and twenties is making a come back.
Here's my situation. I have a long term illness which prevents me from having a 9 to 5 job, so I started working from home over 10 years ago and I get on with that fine. I have been able to go out when I really have to, on my own, but I find it a little daunting, I am ok with company now, but I used to have major panics when I was younger, even when I went out with someone - which is why it was kind of gone.
Now, part of my business was offered a spot in a shared shop in town, which means it will give my business more exposure and more income, so that's great. I only have to contribute a few hours a week, I am looking forward to it. But when I think about it, that old feeling comes back, I feel that tingling, throat tightening, I feel dizzy and numb. I know I won't be alone but I have been getting so comfy working in my own little bubble. Now I have to go out there, I want to do this but I am also scared. Will it get better once I've taken the plunge? I am hoping that going every week will help things get easier, maybe the bad feelings and the fear will go away? I worry I will make excuses not to go and I hate feeling like this, I don't want this to control me and stop me.