MissShabby
27-10-14, 00:12
Hi everyone, I'm feeling in a really low place at the moment and I can't seem to talk to anyone that's close to me about it as I feel like no one can understand, I mean I don't even understand myself.
I've had depression and anxiety on and off since I was 17 (I'm now 31). I've been doing quite well the last few years, slowly getting my life together and everything. I have a job I love and I'm at college also.
Three weeks ago I was at work and kept feeling really tired, and kept feeling faint as though I'd stood up too quickly even though I hadn't even moved. So I put it down to tiredness, until that night when I got home I found going upstairs hard and I realised I was ill, so thought I was coming down with a cold. The next day I took the day off college to have a lie in, but I realised I had vertigo so my mum took me to the drs, where he told me I had labyrinthitis.
The doctor gave me betahistamines and said it would go away in a week or two, so I just thought I'd take the tablets and get back to normal. Wrong. I was off work for a almost two weeks, and I went back last Monday. I was still really dizzy but by Wednesday it wasn't so bad.
The thing is now I feel completely and utterly depressed. I feel so sad, I'm completely exhausted. I feel depressed that I'm too scared to go to sleep at night because it feels like I'm going to sleep to die.
I'm on prozac already, and they've been good up until now. But I'm hoping all of this will pass.
I'm scared the doctor got the labyrinthitis diagnosis wrong and I have a brain tumour or something.
I was told at the doctor at the time also that a blood test I'd had (as I have bowel problems) were all good also, but my stool sample had a bit of inflammation (75 they said), so everything is scaring me to hell and I feel terrified.
I just don't know what to do.
I've had depression and anxiety on and off since I was 17 (I'm now 31). I've been doing quite well the last few years, slowly getting my life together and everything. I have a job I love and I'm at college also.
Three weeks ago I was at work and kept feeling really tired, and kept feeling faint as though I'd stood up too quickly even though I hadn't even moved. So I put it down to tiredness, until that night when I got home I found going upstairs hard and I realised I was ill, so thought I was coming down with a cold. The next day I took the day off college to have a lie in, but I realised I had vertigo so my mum took me to the drs, where he told me I had labyrinthitis.
The doctor gave me betahistamines and said it would go away in a week or two, so I just thought I'd take the tablets and get back to normal. Wrong. I was off work for a almost two weeks, and I went back last Monday. I was still really dizzy but by Wednesday it wasn't so bad.
The thing is now I feel completely and utterly depressed. I feel so sad, I'm completely exhausted. I feel depressed that I'm too scared to go to sleep at night because it feels like I'm going to sleep to die.
I'm on prozac already, and they've been good up until now. But I'm hoping all of this will pass.
I'm scared the doctor got the labyrinthitis diagnosis wrong and I have a brain tumour or something.
I was told at the doctor at the time also that a blood test I'd had (as I have bowel problems) were all good also, but my stool sample had a bit of inflammation (75 they said), so everything is scaring me to hell and I feel terrified.
I just don't know what to do.