Nat99
30-10-14, 14:03
Hello
I have been socially/light smoking on and off since I was 16 to when I becaue pregnant at 34. I didn't smoke every day and more so in my 20's in pubs and clubs sometikes white heavily when drinking and with friends. Sometimes in the day if I was upset I had some with bad relationships etc. when I got pregnant i stopped immediately and since he was born in April 2009 I have had a handful of cigarettes at parties etc and a few when I was going through a very bad time with my ex. But none for 3 years. I think about 2 years ago I had one because I got very drunk. I know I was stupid to smoke at all and althiugh I had GAD Since I was 20 I've only really had health anxiety last few years which in the last 3 weeks has spiralled so much I am started
On sertraline and diazapam. I had a cough a few months ago and gp send me for x Ray to put my mind at rest and I went into meltdown, crying while they did the x Ray convinced I had lung cancer. It came back clear but i think unbeknown to me that was the start of this latest episode. I can't stop the thought going round snd round in my head that I have damaged my lungs and one day I am going to get it, even tho it show clear now. And by having those few cigarettes in the last few years have I put my risk right back up there again. And someone I here has made a comment that lung cancer always sees u as a smoker :( i am in such a state thinking I may get it and i will only have myself to blame. I wonder if anyone has the same and has managed to get on with it. People say u can't change the past which I know but I can't believe I was so stupid and now look where it has got me. These thoughts are in my head now all the time and I am signed off work and haven't been out apart from short walks for nearly 6 days now :( I just can't seem to get it out my head . Should I see my x Ray as a new start which I am trying to do but keep convincing myself that lung cancer will and can still develop. I hope someone replies becauese
I am going out of my mind here and just need to get back to functioning with my life.
I have been socially/light smoking on and off since I was 16 to when I becaue pregnant at 34. I didn't smoke every day and more so in my 20's in pubs and clubs sometikes white heavily when drinking and with friends. Sometimes in the day if I was upset I had some with bad relationships etc. when I got pregnant i stopped immediately and since he was born in April 2009 I have had a handful of cigarettes at parties etc and a few when I was going through a very bad time with my ex. But none for 3 years. I think about 2 years ago I had one because I got very drunk. I know I was stupid to smoke at all and althiugh I had GAD Since I was 20 I've only really had health anxiety last few years which in the last 3 weeks has spiralled so much I am started
On sertraline and diazapam. I had a cough a few months ago and gp send me for x Ray to put my mind at rest and I went into meltdown, crying while they did the x Ray convinced I had lung cancer. It came back clear but i think unbeknown to me that was the start of this latest episode. I can't stop the thought going round snd round in my head that I have damaged my lungs and one day I am going to get it, even tho it show clear now. And by having those few cigarettes in the last few years have I put my risk right back up there again. And someone I here has made a comment that lung cancer always sees u as a smoker :( i am in such a state thinking I may get it and i will only have myself to blame. I wonder if anyone has the same and has managed to get on with it. People say u can't change the past which I know but I can't believe I was so stupid and now look where it has got me. These thoughts are in my head now all the time and I am signed off work and haven't been out apart from short walks for nearly 6 days now :( I just can't seem to get it out my head . Should I see my x Ray as a new start which I am trying to do but keep convincing myself that lung cancer will and can still develop. I hope someone replies becauese
I am going out of my mind here and just need to get back to functioning with my life.