Light_Bringer777
03-11-14, 14:03
Hi everyone, I'm glad I've found this place!
I''m a man in my late twenties, been sick for over 3 years with some very rough patches, and I recently started to notice a very bad behavior found its way into my mind.
Belching, nausea, weight loss, crushing fatigue... Doctors didn't know what was wrong with me and didn't seem to care much, and months of research, trial and yes, google allowed me to find "real" physical causes to my biggest problems (hypothyroidism and can't digest grains for some reason). I "self-diagnosed", argued with my doctors, and in the end I was right. For better or for worst.
However useful this was, the habit of investigating every little symptom I had slowly made me hypochondriac. I'm just starting to notice the behavior, and even though there is a very slight chance that any symptom could be a more serious disease, at this point the fear of being sick and dying has become worst than the symptoms I'm having.
I find it a bit humiliating to admit and don't quite know yet how to deal with all this, for example not being 100% sure if a symptom sprouts from anxiety or not, if I'm blowing it out of proportion or not, but I know for sure that I don't want to keep walking down this path. Last night I almost couldn't sleep because I couldn't shake the thought that my recent face flushing was perhaps that "dangerous thing I just found out about on wikipedia"... :scared15:
So right now my first steps are to stop googling everything, take things as they come and start reading on the subject to build myself some tools!
I''m a man in my late twenties, been sick for over 3 years with some very rough patches, and I recently started to notice a very bad behavior found its way into my mind.
Belching, nausea, weight loss, crushing fatigue... Doctors didn't know what was wrong with me and didn't seem to care much, and months of research, trial and yes, google allowed me to find "real" physical causes to my biggest problems (hypothyroidism and can't digest grains for some reason). I "self-diagnosed", argued with my doctors, and in the end I was right. For better or for worst.
However useful this was, the habit of investigating every little symptom I had slowly made me hypochondriac. I'm just starting to notice the behavior, and even though there is a very slight chance that any symptom could be a more serious disease, at this point the fear of being sick and dying has become worst than the symptoms I'm having.
I find it a bit humiliating to admit and don't quite know yet how to deal with all this, for example not being 100% sure if a symptom sprouts from anxiety or not, if I'm blowing it out of proportion or not, but I know for sure that I don't want to keep walking down this path. Last night I almost couldn't sleep because I couldn't shake the thought that my recent face flushing was perhaps that "dangerous thing I just found out about on wikipedia"... :scared15:
So right now my first steps are to stop googling everything, take things as they come and start reading on the subject to build myself some tools!