Carl88
10-11-14, 19:32
Hi all, just signed up here, this is my story. I am 25, up until march 2013 I was so laid back and never knew what stress or anxiety was capable of. Only time I ever felt any worries was when I was hungover. Last march I had a health scare which then led to strange feelings in my stomach and eventually led to me feeling really strange and fuzzy. Was sure I had a serious illness. At the end of May I left work to go to A and E and was told it was just anxiety, even though I knew it was all just the stress of a few months health anxiety I felt no better the next day at work, felt like I was floating and detatched so had to leave again and went straight to hospital. Again they said it's just anxiety so I came home explained it all tiny parents which was a relief and took a week off work and felt better.
When I went back on nightshift early June I would wake up in panic attacks on a morning even though I was relaxed I think it was just from been on high alert for months previous. However with the help of a good therapist and beta blockers I was back to my old self by the end of June and thought that was it.
I work long hard tiring 12 hour shifts days and nights in a job that I have been at for 6 years, which gets me down nowadays but I just get on with it best I can for now as I have something else lined up for next year fingers crossed so only got couple more months to get though. Always wanted to leave on my own terms after been there for 6 years and give a lot to it. Last week though I recieved a final warning for absence/ lateness which has me feeling pressured and afraid of being off again and getting sacked which has me feeling tension in my head, nausea and restlessness as well as not sleeping great. I have had that a few times this year about the thought of work but using what I learned last year I can manage it just and when actually at work I feel ok, it's more the thought of it that's gets me stressed.
Thinking of going back to therapy or the doctor for first time since last June as altough it passes in a few days it has happened too often this year for my liking and don't like having to deal with this every other month on my own.
Especially been on a final warning and not having the option for time off work which helped a lot last year. If I'm off with anxiety again I would be sacked and that is a horrible thought for me. Definitely think last summers experience had made me more sensitive to stress and worries than I was before
Sorry for long post but any help tips be appreciated thanks
When I went back on nightshift early June I would wake up in panic attacks on a morning even though I was relaxed I think it was just from been on high alert for months previous. However with the help of a good therapist and beta blockers I was back to my old self by the end of June and thought that was it.
I work long hard tiring 12 hour shifts days and nights in a job that I have been at for 6 years, which gets me down nowadays but I just get on with it best I can for now as I have something else lined up for next year fingers crossed so only got couple more months to get though. Always wanted to leave on my own terms after been there for 6 years and give a lot to it. Last week though I recieved a final warning for absence/ lateness which has me feeling pressured and afraid of being off again and getting sacked which has me feeling tension in my head, nausea and restlessness as well as not sleeping great. I have had that a few times this year about the thought of work but using what I learned last year I can manage it just and when actually at work I feel ok, it's more the thought of it that's gets me stressed.
Thinking of going back to therapy or the doctor for first time since last June as altough it passes in a few days it has happened too often this year for my liking and don't like having to deal with this every other month on my own.
Especially been on a final warning and not having the option for time off work which helped a lot last year. If I'm off with anxiety again I would be sacked and that is a horrible thought for me. Definitely think last summers experience had made me more sensitive to stress and worries than I was before
Sorry for long post but any help tips be appreciated thanks