Avasmummy_x
15-11-14, 10:32
I've started noticing a patten with my anxiety symptoms. Last year I was conceived I had a dvt as my leg came out all blood blistered and ached for weeks my doctor was convinced it wasn't and it got to the point I then started with chest pain and breathlessness. which sparked pe fears. Except this time I was took seriously and was actually put on blood thinning meds and in resus as they thought it was too. Guess what? Ended up discharged the next day with anxiety.
So then I goy paranoid about my heart as the chest pain and breathlessness continued. I was convinced I had heart disease of some form and a ticking time bomb. Some weeks id go my doctors 3 times a week to check my sat levels as I was convinced I couldn't breath and my heart was packing in. After 5months my doctor organised a echo scan as she didn't know what else to do with me as I kept going doctors or out of hours convinced I couldn't breathe. Echo scan clear. Put down to anxiety. And guess what the symptoms faded...
Then I went through a phase of lightheadnessness 24/7 with numb arms and really really bad constant headaches. Of course brain tumour comes to mind. Had an mri last month still awaiting results. But neurologist said before the scan he thought it was migraines or sinuses. Lord behold my lightheaded is still here some days but not constant like it was before the scan? Maybe it's because I knew I would of heard pretty quickly if I had a tumour. Not weeks.
And now currently it seems to be mental illness I'm focussed on. I don't normally has physcological symphoms of anxiety its always been physical ones as you can by my History. Now I'm having constant racing thoughts. My mind won't stop. My ears are sooo sensitive. To the point I think I'll hear voices. I'm just in a constant state of panic. And now I'm obsessive over the fact I may be going mad. Steming from my mum has bi polar so always been scared I will end up mentally ill. So now you've guessed it I'm back at my doctors every week for reassurance that I'm not mad. Why am I so sensitive to sound then? Why does it feel like I'm gonna hear stuff? Why am I having intrusive thoughts? These are all things I've never experience in my 8years of anxiety.
But then I think. I did exactly the same with all illness. It must be a brain tumour this pain and lightheadnessness is constant. I don't get a break. If it was anxiety I would get a break. Now my arms numb now it is neurologically effecting me. It's definitely definitely a brain tumour. But no Charlotte it's not.
So yeah does anyone else do this? Constant cycle of jumping from illness to illness? I must admit though this new one scares me more as there is no scan to rule it out. How will I rid myself this time?
So then I goy paranoid about my heart as the chest pain and breathlessness continued. I was convinced I had heart disease of some form and a ticking time bomb. Some weeks id go my doctors 3 times a week to check my sat levels as I was convinced I couldn't breath and my heart was packing in. After 5months my doctor organised a echo scan as she didn't know what else to do with me as I kept going doctors or out of hours convinced I couldn't breathe. Echo scan clear. Put down to anxiety. And guess what the symptoms faded...
Then I went through a phase of lightheadnessness 24/7 with numb arms and really really bad constant headaches. Of course brain tumour comes to mind. Had an mri last month still awaiting results. But neurologist said before the scan he thought it was migraines or sinuses. Lord behold my lightheaded is still here some days but not constant like it was before the scan? Maybe it's because I knew I would of heard pretty quickly if I had a tumour. Not weeks.
And now currently it seems to be mental illness I'm focussed on. I don't normally has physcological symphoms of anxiety its always been physical ones as you can by my History. Now I'm having constant racing thoughts. My mind won't stop. My ears are sooo sensitive. To the point I think I'll hear voices. I'm just in a constant state of panic. And now I'm obsessive over the fact I may be going mad. Steming from my mum has bi polar so always been scared I will end up mentally ill. So now you've guessed it I'm back at my doctors every week for reassurance that I'm not mad. Why am I so sensitive to sound then? Why does it feel like I'm gonna hear stuff? Why am I having intrusive thoughts? These are all things I've never experience in my 8years of anxiety.
But then I think. I did exactly the same with all illness. It must be a brain tumour this pain and lightheadnessness is constant. I don't get a break. If it was anxiety I would get a break. Now my arms numb now it is neurologically effecting me. It's definitely definitely a brain tumour. But no Charlotte it's not.
So yeah does anyone else do this? Constant cycle of jumping from illness to illness? I must admit though this new one scares me more as there is no scan to rule it out. How will I rid myself this time?