Elf8888
17-11-14, 13:35
Please will somebody talk to me.
Every year, just before Christmas, the health anxiety rears it's ugly head and spoils everything. BUT, what if it's the real thing this year.
A couple of weeks ago I had a couple of heart thuds while at the gym. That was ok and then I thought my head was shaking a bit. Googled Parkinson's. Seems perhaps not. Then started the other symptoms:
Chest pain
Back pain - upper
Kidney pain
Stomach pain
Light headed
Clammy hands sometimes, feeling sweaty
Gassy
I've been on Citalopram for years.
I keep all of this to myself. My family have no idea the suffering I go through. As far as they're concerned 'mum is fine'. But mum is spending every secret waking moment googling her troubles.
Hate going to doctor. I've just moved surgeries and feel I have to start all over again with a doctor that doesn't understand me.
How can I make it go away? I adore christmas and here's this underlying sense of 'this will be my last, if indeed I make it that far'.
Every year, just before Christmas, the health anxiety rears it's ugly head and spoils everything. BUT, what if it's the real thing this year.
A couple of weeks ago I had a couple of heart thuds while at the gym. That was ok and then I thought my head was shaking a bit. Googled Parkinson's. Seems perhaps not. Then started the other symptoms:
Chest pain
Back pain - upper
Kidney pain
Stomach pain
Light headed
Clammy hands sometimes, feeling sweaty
Gassy
I've been on Citalopram for years.
I keep all of this to myself. My family have no idea the suffering I go through. As far as they're concerned 'mum is fine'. But mum is spending every secret waking moment googling her troubles.
Hate going to doctor. I've just moved surgeries and feel I have to start all over again with a doctor that doesn't understand me.
How can I make it go away? I adore christmas and here's this underlying sense of 'this will be my last, if indeed I make it that far'.