NE21 worrier
17-11-14, 15:26
Hi folks,
I'm writing this as I feel as if I've hit quite a rough patch recently. I had lots of anticipatory anxiety prior to my trip to Prague last month (although I enjoyed it, as usual) then got overly wound up by someone at work who was mainly just trying to be nice.
Now, this weekend, I've had a drunken falling out with another friend who quite upset me with what he said as he suggested I had not been a particularly supportive person which I felt was harsh. We've not communicated since then though I'm seeing him to see a gig on Wednesday and fear the atmosphere will be awkward, although there will be a couple of others there too.
Nevertheless, I've got myself so wound up about it in the meantime, I've resorted to taking 2mg of diazepam this afternoon to try and settle myself down. I struggled to eat yesterday (eventually managed a sandwich) and, because of my tummy, have not felt like anything today yet.
The diazepam is still in date but was from a meeting from a GP quite a while back. I'm just wondering if I should go back to the docs to try and discuss going back on some longer-term plans/medication to try and help me settle down again.
I've been on Sertraline in the past which helped, I think - but, after being signed off from CBT, I stopped taking it without instructions from the GP as I felt better anyway. I would consider Sertraline again but I remember the side-effects in the first few weeks being difficult and my worry with this is that I don't want it to affect me at work. There I have done well recently as I'm set to join the main day shift from 01-Dec (having just worked part time since June).
As my anxiety seems to go in spells where it focuses intensely and directly on one thing and then dissipates, would perhaps something like a beta blocker would work better?
---------- Post added at 15:26 ---------- Previous post was at 14:32 ----------
UPDATE
I've sent a message to my friend. I remember Fishmanpa telling me that communication in these matters is key. On this occasion, I wasn't entirely in the right and so I have apologised where I've needed to - I just hope he will accept that I don't want to feel awkward about the whole situation and want to move on so that we can enjoy Wednesday together instead. We'll see...
I'm writing this as I feel as if I've hit quite a rough patch recently. I had lots of anticipatory anxiety prior to my trip to Prague last month (although I enjoyed it, as usual) then got overly wound up by someone at work who was mainly just trying to be nice.
Now, this weekend, I've had a drunken falling out with another friend who quite upset me with what he said as he suggested I had not been a particularly supportive person which I felt was harsh. We've not communicated since then though I'm seeing him to see a gig on Wednesday and fear the atmosphere will be awkward, although there will be a couple of others there too.
Nevertheless, I've got myself so wound up about it in the meantime, I've resorted to taking 2mg of diazepam this afternoon to try and settle myself down. I struggled to eat yesterday (eventually managed a sandwich) and, because of my tummy, have not felt like anything today yet.
The diazepam is still in date but was from a meeting from a GP quite a while back. I'm just wondering if I should go back to the docs to try and discuss going back on some longer-term plans/medication to try and help me settle down again.
I've been on Sertraline in the past which helped, I think - but, after being signed off from CBT, I stopped taking it without instructions from the GP as I felt better anyway. I would consider Sertraline again but I remember the side-effects in the first few weeks being difficult and my worry with this is that I don't want it to affect me at work. There I have done well recently as I'm set to join the main day shift from 01-Dec (having just worked part time since June).
As my anxiety seems to go in spells where it focuses intensely and directly on one thing and then dissipates, would perhaps something like a beta blocker would work better?
---------- Post added at 15:26 ---------- Previous post was at 14:32 ----------
UPDATE
I've sent a message to my friend. I remember Fishmanpa telling me that communication in these matters is key. On this occasion, I wasn't entirely in the right and so I have apologised where I've needed to - I just hope he will accept that I don't want to feel awkward about the whole situation and want to move on so that we can enjoy Wednesday together instead. We'll see...