ferpanda
23-11-14, 12:13
Hi guys,
I'm Maria, I'm 27 years old and I live in Mexico city.
So glad there's a place like this where I can share my experience with others who go through the same or similar stuff.
My life used to be normal, even tho I had a tendency for depression. But then, suddenly, everything changed forever. I'll sum it up as much as I can:
Almost 3 years ago, my family and I were in a car crash where someone very close to me passed away (my 10 year old nephew, who was also my god son and pretty much my best friend). Sadly, my mom could never recover fom it and she passed away eight months ago. And on top of everything, in the middle of both my mom and my nephew passing away, my sister and I were kidnapped for a few hours one night, the kidnappers didn't physically harm us, they just took our money, but it left a permanent trauma in me that I just can't seem to deal with very well. All of it together has left me in a mental and emotional wreck.
As you can probably imagine, I rarely leave the house now. I'm always afraid of accidents or crime, or illness (from which my mom passed away-- she died from a curable illness that could have been treated had we found out in time).
My anxiety levels are unbearable sometimes. I feel very misunderstood, my family is always telling me to seek help, but we don't have much money and there's no free help where I live. I work from home and I study online too, because that's the only way I can stop thinking about the horrible things that happened or might happen; so, I'm not idle all day but when I want to sleep, go outside or have a normal life, I just can't.
I thought I'd share it and just make some new friends to make this rough times more bearable for me, because I'm in almost complete isolation, I don't see my friends or family anymore (very rarely) and I've been feeling lonely and sad as of late.
Also, I'd like to be of help for those who need someone to talk to. I'm a very good listener :-)
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
big hugs from Mexico.
Maria.
I'm Maria, I'm 27 years old and I live in Mexico city.
So glad there's a place like this where I can share my experience with others who go through the same or similar stuff.
My life used to be normal, even tho I had a tendency for depression. But then, suddenly, everything changed forever. I'll sum it up as much as I can:
Almost 3 years ago, my family and I were in a car crash where someone very close to me passed away (my 10 year old nephew, who was also my god son and pretty much my best friend). Sadly, my mom could never recover fom it and she passed away eight months ago. And on top of everything, in the middle of both my mom and my nephew passing away, my sister and I were kidnapped for a few hours one night, the kidnappers didn't physically harm us, they just took our money, but it left a permanent trauma in me that I just can't seem to deal with very well. All of it together has left me in a mental and emotional wreck.
As you can probably imagine, I rarely leave the house now. I'm always afraid of accidents or crime, or illness (from which my mom passed away-- she died from a curable illness that could have been treated had we found out in time).
My anxiety levels are unbearable sometimes. I feel very misunderstood, my family is always telling me to seek help, but we don't have much money and there's no free help where I live. I work from home and I study online too, because that's the only way I can stop thinking about the horrible things that happened or might happen; so, I'm not idle all day but when I want to sleep, go outside or have a normal life, I just can't.
I thought I'd share it and just make some new friends to make this rough times more bearable for me, because I'm in almost complete isolation, I don't see my friends or family anymore (very rarely) and I've been feeling lonely and sad as of late.
Also, I'd like to be of help for those who need someone to talk to. I'm a very good listener :-)
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
big hugs from Mexico.
Maria.