vanxious
25-11-14, 23:18
Hello eveybody,
This might not be a big deal to the most of you, but i'm having some troubles coping with this feeling i'm having for the last few weeks. Let me talk about it:
For the past 7 years or so i didn't believe in relationships. I never got in love with anyone, and thought that a relationship was nothing more than troubles and, well, a bit of a waste of time. Don't get the picture wrong, i've had some girlfriends in my life, just caught thinking that they were not worth it. For the last years i've had no more than some "friends with benefits". But one day i met this girl. And i got fed up of being the way i was and started beliving that a good and strong relationship is really the way to go. Ok, this was just to give you a setup for the history itself. There it goes:
Me and her are dating for a couple of months now. Started really soft, because she was very unsure about getting into a new relationship (she has left from an earlier relationship not a long ago and she felt that she might not be ready for a new one just yet, altough she likes me), and i think that everything is going well. When we are togheter everything is as good and smooth as a relationship can be. Troubles start when we are not togheter - at least for me. She is not the kind of girl that is much expressive on her words about her feelings; she doesn't verbaly sais "i like you" or anything related much often, and we are now living 90km apart, so we're not togheter more than one or two days per week, sometimes less. And when i'm not with her, i'm starting to feel really anxious, thinking about her real feelings, and what is this relationship all about in the end: Is it for real? Is her just playing with me? She's on her phone all day, why doesn't she text me more often? These are questions i find myself doing over and over again, and then i start to feel anxious about it and kind of lose control of myself.
I could use some common sense here, and get my feet on the ground on this subject. I've never talked about this with my family or friends, and of course i don't feel that i should talk to her also, because that might seems that i'm rushing the relationship or something, and she might freak out.
Sorry for the long post, and sorry for some mispeling on my English... :)
...and thanks for reading my post.
This might not be a big deal to the most of you, but i'm having some troubles coping with this feeling i'm having for the last few weeks. Let me talk about it:
For the past 7 years or so i didn't believe in relationships. I never got in love with anyone, and thought that a relationship was nothing more than troubles and, well, a bit of a waste of time. Don't get the picture wrong, i've had some girlfriends in my life, just caught thinking that they were not worth it. For the last years i've had no more than some "friends with benefits". But one day i met this girl. And i got fed up of being the way i was and started beliving that a good and strong relationship is really the way to go. Ok, this was just to give you a setup for the history itself. There it goes:
Me and her are dating for a couple of months now. Started really soft, because she was very unsure about getting into a new relationship (she has left from an earlier relationship not a long ago and she felt that she might not be ready for a new one just yet, altough she likes me), and i think that everything is going well. When we are togheter everything is as good and smooth as a relationship can be. Troubles start when we are not togheter - at least for me. She is not the kind of girl that is much expressive on her words about her feelings; she doesn't verbaly sais "i like you" or anything related much often, and we are now living 90km apart, so we're not togheter more than one or two days per week, sometimes less. And when i'm not with her, i'm starting to feel really anxious, thinking about her real feelings, and what is this relationship all about in the end: Is it for real? Is her just playing with me? She's on her phone all day, why doesn't she text me more often? These are questions i find myself doing over and over again, and then i start to feel anxious about it and kind of lose control of myself.
I could use some common sense here, and get my feet on the ground on this subject. I've never talked about this with my family or friends, and of course i don't feel that i should talk to her also, because that might seems that i'm rushing the relationship or something, and she might freak out.
Sorry for the long post, and sorry for some mispeling on my English... :)
...and thanks for reading my post.