Elle-Kay
29-11-14, 23:54
I took my mum & sister to a Christmas craft fair today. The drive was about an hour, and I've been before. I was completely fine while we were there, so I had some lunch (something I usually avoid) and enjoyed it. On the way out of the venue though we got caught in a bit of traffic (tailbacks from a junction where cars wanting to turn right onto a busy road were holding movement up - nothing abnormal), and I stated to feel uneasy. By the time we'd reached the main road I was in full blown panic - tingling hands, light head, retching, racing heart, the lot - and was trying desperately to keep my mind on driving as it was the only way for me to get home.
It was horrible, to have it happen out of the blue like that, and now I feel wretched, especially as I need to go on another trip tomorrow to collect something from eBay, then on Monday I'm starting to work full time for the first time in over 2 years. The last time I worked full time I was signed off by my Dr because my anxiety was the worst it's ever been, and I had to leave my job. I've tried hard to get my life back on track since then, but what happened today has just made me doubt everything.
It was horrible, to have it happen out of the blue like that, and now I feel wretched, especially as I need to go on another trip tomorrow to collect something from eBay, then on Monday I'm starting to work full time for the first time in over 2 years. The last time I worked full time I was signed off by my Dr because my anxiety was the worst it's ever been, and I had to leave my job. I've tried hard to get my life back on track since then, but what happened today has just made me doubt everything.