jimlfc6
04-12-14, 00:07
Hello, not posted on here for a good while. I have suffered for a long time with anxiety, in particular health anxiety.
Anyway a bit about myself,I am a 31 year old dad of four girls who I adore and am about to get married this month, I run my own business selling online.
I thought things were going well with my business, sales were good and people were very happy with my products, until 3 weeks ago trading standards showed up at my door and seized 200 of my items, it since turns out the 200 items are fine and are being returned, but alot of items earlier in the year were not okay, which they test purchased and are due to land me in a lot of trouble.
I know it's what everybody says in this situation, but I honestly did not know there was anything wrong with them. I have never been in trouble before so am panicking like most people would in this situation. This will end up going to court, which is scaring me.
I know its very normal to worry about something like this, but this is where the anxiety is kicking in, where people who deal with things better would let their solicitor deal with it, I cant seem to do that, I'm researching things every 10 minutes and scaring myself to death, I can't enjoy my time with my partner or children, as I feel as if I have let them down, and that they are going to be taken away from me. I want to look forward to my wedding, but I can't.
I am a fully grown man, crying every few hours, popping diazepam to try and numb the pain. Honestly I love my family, but I am having horrible thoughts which are getting me even more upset.
There is nothing I can do about this, everyone keeps saying you won't get locked up, its only going to be a big fine. Even the investigator has said that I am a thoroughly decent man, and there is no way on gods green earth that I will be jailed, it will just be a fine, but I can't help but fear for the worse. Genuine scared and not coping with it one bit, and not sure how much longer I can either.
Anyway a bit about myself,I am a 31 year old dad of four girls who I adore and am about to get married this month, I run my own business selling online.
I thought things were going well with my business, sales were good and people were very happy with my products, until 3 weeks ago trading standards showed up at my door and seized 200 of my items, it since turns out the 200 items are fine and are being returned, but alot of items earlier in the year were not okay, which they test purchased and are due to land me in a lot of trouble.
I know it's what everybody says in this situation, but I honestly did not know there was anything wrong with them. I have never been in trouble before so am panicking like most people would in this situation. This will end up going to court, which is scaring me.
I know its very normal to worry about something like this, but this is where the anxiety is kicking in, where people who deal with things better would let their solicitor deal with it, I cant seem to do that, I'm researching things every 10 minutes and scaring myself to death, I can't enjoy my time with my partner or children, as I feel as if I have let them down, and that they are going to be taken away from me. I want to look forward to my wedding, but I can't.
I am a fully grown man, crying every few hours, popping diazepam to try and numb the pain. Honestly I love my family, but I am having horrible thoughts which are getting me even more upset.
There is nothing I can do about this, everyone keeps saying you won't get locked up, its only going to be a big fine. Even the investigator has said that I am a thoroughly decent man, and there is no way on gods green earth that I will be jailed, it will just be a fine, but I can't help but fear for the worse. Genuine scared and not coping with it one bit, and not sure how much longer I can either.