And still it continues...

[flatterycat]

I know I keep posting and I know you've all heard my brain tumour fears:weep:

It all started with weird symptoms (which I have posted about previously) . Now I am experiencing more and I really don't know what to think. I feel like asking my GP for an MRI but they don't seem to think anything is wrong!

My head feels odd! I keep getting these dizzy spells - they last seconds and feel like my head or brain has suddenly moved. They are very sudden and scary. I also keep getting a lesser dizzy feeling.

I keep getting sharp pains in my head in various places and other weird sensations that I can't describe.

Sometimes I feel like I'm confused - my head feels fuzzy and I can't think straight. Reading things feels off and I even have to recite my name and address to check that I'm not that confused.

Finally, I have the stuff that started this - flashbacks to random dreams I have had over the years, which just pop into my head for no reason.

Anyway, whether anyone can relate or not, I just need to get it all off my chest. My hubby says it's the stress I've been under since Sept when I took on an acting head role at school as well as teaching and the subsequent inspection we had. But throughout it all I was fine. Even now typing this I feel dizzy and not quite with it. It's like my mental clarity has gone:weep:

[CA88]

I know I keep posting and I know you've all heard my brain tumour fears:weep:

It all started with weird symptoms (which I have posted about previously) . Now I am experiencing more and I really don't know what to think. I feel like asking my GP for an MRI but they don't seem to think anything is wrong!

My head feels odd! I keep getting these dizzy spells - they last seconds and feel like my head or brain has suddenly moved. They are very sudden and scary. I also keep getting a lesser dizzy feeling.

I keep getting sharp pains in my head in various places and other weird sensations that I can't describe.

Sometimes I feel like I'm confused - my head feels fuzzy and I can't think straight. Reading things feels off and I even have to recite my name and address to check that I'm not that confused.

Finally, I have the stuff that started this - flashbacks to random dreams I have had over the years, which just pop into my head for no reason.

Anyway, whether anyone can relate or not, I just need to get it all off my chest. My hubby says it's the stress I've been under since Sept when I took on an acting head role at school as well as teaching and the subsequent inspection we had. But throughout it all I was fine. Even now typing this I feel dizzy and not quite with it. It's like my mental clarity has gone:weep:


Right there with you on this one, plus many many more symptoms. I'm going to try and see my GP tomorrow, I just can't accept this is anxiety, 'cause i'm not feeling anxious at all anymore, and having nothing much to be anxious about!

[flatterycat]

I'm feeling the same. I have had anxiety for as long as I can remember, but this feels different to previous bouts. I just can't see how this is anxiety.

Thanks for replying x

[Juan Inch]

Boy do us anxiety sufferers go through the mill, eh?

Hopefully this will put your mind at ease...

Last June (2013) I was in a doctors surgery because of a mole that had bled on my forehead (stay with me...it relates to your story). She referred me to a specialist as she 'wasn't happy' with what she was looking at. All of a sudden my health anxiety kicked off BIG TIME. They couldnt find an appointment any sooner than the beginning of September! I spent twelve weeks scared stiff that I had skin cancer. It was an absolute nightmare for an HA sufferer.

Anyway, the day came for me to see the specialist and... I was practically laughed out of the hospital (in a nice way, of course) as they said that there was absolutely nothing wrong with my mole and that it looked 'totally normal'. To say I was relieved was a massive understatement.

Earlier in the spring of that year my wife and I booked a holiday in Greece for September with our son. After my good news this was just what I needed...a holiday.

However, leading up to the holiday and even ON my holiday I felt all sorts of dizzy. Ground moving, vertigo, room spinning...head rushes of all sorts. I thought it was my sinuses but now Im thinking it was just anxiety. I didnt feel anxious (especially after my hospital trip) but I think it was just my body catching up with me and chemicals rebalancing etc.

Ive been there and , touch wood, since September last year Ive never had it since.

Stay positive. You'll be fine, Im sure.

[flatterycat]

Ah. Thanks. Juan (I love your forum name). :D

I remember back in 2011 I had to have a head MRI for tinnitus. They discovered an incidental finding of what they thought was a hemangioma in the base of my head and I had to have a cervical MRI to confirm it. Those weeks waiting were horrendous and in the end it was what they had thought. They said it was like a birthmark on the inside and completely benign - prob born with it!

I know I had been under a lot of stress at work and was working 24/7 to make sure I was doing my very very best. Still, these symptoms are bloody weird:mad:

[Fishmanpa]

I just can't accept this is anxiety

Read this. (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/articles/symptoms)These are all real physical symptoms caused by anxiety. If medical science can't find a reason, then it leaves the mind that is ill. Treat the illness and you treat the symptoms.

Positive thoughts

[flatterycat]

Hi FMP

Thanks for replying

My problem is that because my symptom of remembering random images/snippets from dreams isn't in there. If I had palpitations I would accept it as anxiety more readily because it's well documented as an anxiety issue. All I could find on the random dream recall was simple partial seizures which then led me to BT:weep:

Thanks again for responding though, it does help to know you read the post.

Sarah

[Fishmanpa]

My problem is that because my symptom of remembering random images/snippets from dreams isn't in there.

The list are physical symptoms as well as psychological. We all recall an odd memory here and there of dreams. Sometimes that happens to me out of the blue. Even as I write I can recall some rather bizarre parts of dreams I was having last night. Totally normal. There's also the fact you're posting on an anxiety forum. However, if you're going to discount all the other symptoms like de-realization/de-personalization then so be it.

In all the time I've been on the boards no one who thought they had a brain tumor (and there were literally countless threads) was ever diagnosed and you won't be the first.

Positive thoughts

[flatterycat]

And the dragon's response to this is...

The fact that no one (who was worried) had a BT must raise my chances statistically. :blush:

I can recall dreams on purpose and have always remembered the ones I had the night before - what's scaring me is that they just pop into my head out of nowhere and without anything acting as a reminder!

Having said all that FMP I understand how much like a broken record I sound and really appreciate the way you respond:)

Sarah

[Fishmanpa]

And the dragon's response to this is...

The fact that no one (who was worried) had a BT must raise my chances statistically. :blush:

The real facts are that of the thousands and thousands of posts, I know of one person who actually had a serious illness and she's doing great! In fact, having to actually deal with the fear has pretty much cured her anxiety.

Maybe it's because I'm older and been through so much but I consider the dragon much like I do people I've known... ex-girlfriends/wives, people who claimed to be friends a few ex bosses etc. I just don't have time for the negativity and totally drop them from my life. I've gone as far as to block email addresses and issue a restraning order on one particular woman who was a freakin' loony toon! ~lol~

In this instance, you know it's the dragon talking. If I were you, I'd kick him in the nads tell him to F&*% OFF! :yesyes:

Positive thoughts

[flatterycat]

Gosh FMP - you are obviously a very popular guy 😉

Seriously though. Thanks. I just find it hard to see how some work stress can have got me to this stage. I know I didn't stop for 2 months and the pressure was hard, but I just went through it all really well and was actually the one that really held it together when things were really tricky.

The rest of my colleagues are all still working and they haven't had to be signed off because of anxiety. That's kind of why I struggle to believe that it's anxiety this time.

SX

[chickpea]

Gosh FMP - you are obviously a very popular guy 😉

Seriously though. Thanks. I just find it hard to see how some work stress can have got me to this stage. I know I didn't stop for 2 months and the pressure was hard, but I just went through it all really well and was actually the one that really held it together when things were really tricky.

The rest of my colleagues are all still working and they haven't had to be signed off because of anxiety. That's kind of why I struggle to believe that it's anxiety this time.

SX

Nearly 7 years ago, I was carjacked at knifepoint one night.
I had to go through the whole court process, which was dragged out because the person who attacked me tried to do it to someone else while on bail.
A few months later, my dad was taken seriously ill and spent 6 months in intensive care before the doctors switched off his life support.

I coped fine throughout - stressed, of course, but not anxious.
Then, wham! 9 months later, the anxiety started - triggered by a physical illness.
As FMP, when you're in the thick of a real crisis, you cope...but it can come out at a later date - a sort of PTSD.

[flatterycat]

Wow Chickpea

What a horrendous experience for you. Now in both of those situations I can completely understand why you would experience anxiety at the very least:ohmy:

Sx

[Libra]

I can relate to many of your symptoms flattery cat. Ive had 3 episodes of the falling through space kind of backwards feeling,random lightheadedness, confusion, random memories etc. ( in 15 years). Each episode was off the back of being anxious for several months before hand. I was told..tense shoulder,neck muscles, and anxiety as the cause.

[fedup36]

Hi

I've just read your post and you sound exactly like me and a friend I have also made through having the same symptoms. We both suffer with dizziness... Different sorts as well from the zaps, where its a split second jolt which gives tingles down the arms, a drink feeling, feeling like your walking on marshmallows. I also get it when I'm walking along that everything goes surreal and I feel like the ground tilts and I loose my balance and can't walk in a straight line. I also get the head pains, blurred vision and pressure behind my nose.
For your reassurance I have had 2 MRIs, ecgs and balance testing and nothing has ever happend to either of us even though we feel it might every time the symptoms start!

You are not alone :)

[flatterycat]

Ah thanks

Libra - Thanks for mentioning the random memory stuff. People often think that I simply remember things, but this is different somehow - out of nowhere a memory from an old dream. It's so weird.

Fedup - I have read a few of your posts and recognised some similarities too. I had an MRI of my head back in 2011 because I had one sided tinnitus - although they found an incidental finding of a hemangioma in my neck. This was nothing to worry about though and the scan of my brain was fine! However I have since heard that Brain MRIs don't necessarily look deeply at the whole head - depends on the area they're focusing on. Until then, I always felt relaxed because I had many of my symptoms prior to the MRI, so thought it was ok. Of course, having heard that I have since had newer symptoms so can no longer rely on the MRI like I used to, plus it was over three years ago!

Today I feel so heady. I keep getting horrible stabbing pains on my scalp and still feel weird. My memory is awful (apart from the hideous memory flashbacks!) and I keep forgetting why I have walked into a room etc etc

Anyway thanks for replies xx

[julia]

Hi I have all your symptoms, let me reassure you please,I panic over them,they terrify me,but I know they are not bt,I lost my younger brother to a brain tumour in March,he had none of those things but I have anxiety and I do xx

[flatterycat]

Oh Julia

I'm really sorry to hear that about your brother:hugs:

Sorry that you are going thru anxiety too.

My problem is that I googled for hours about a symptom I was having (see previous posts) and everything that came up said it was simple partial seizures, which of course then led me to BT. Then it all spiralled:weep:

X

[Libra]

I also get the stabbing pains top and side of head and sometimes a feeling of fullness or tingling.Im sure that's related to sinus issues though.