ellederflower
18-12-14, 20:24
Hi everyone,
I'm new to this forum so please be patient with me. I don't know where else to turn to. Through out my life I've had anxiety on and off, and it's usually correct. Other people tell me that it's just in my head but I feel like I'm really really connected to what's going on and is about to happen. I don't mean that I can predict what will happen or have visions but I get this overwhelming feeling of dread and terror and it will later turn out that something did happen.
Well, I've got that feeling again and I can't explain it away. My life seems to be going fairly well now but this feeling is driving me insane. I just can't shake the feeling like something really really bad is going to happen, to the point where I'm becoming a little obsessive and annoying with checking that my o/h got to and from work safely (we don't live together). He had a crash a few years back and that's why I'm so afraid of it happening again. Every morning when I hear sirens I freak out. He works in a facility where he can't have his phone on during the day, so I only get texts from him when he nips off to the toilet or is on lunch. So if I don't get a reply within a few hours, my stomach has worked it's way up into my throat with worry.
The thing is I can't think of anything else that could be going horribly wrong but car crashes are very common, so perhaps that's why I've fixated on it.
It's not just that though. I just know something isn't right, somewhere, with someone. I'll be going about my day and then I'm hit with overwhelming sadness and worry and I don't know why.
I used to get really terrible sleep paralysis and night terrors but hadn't had them as often the last two years because my life has been better but I've started getting them again, which is actually probably what triggered all this. I would only get them when something wasn't sitting right.
I know this is so vague but it's really just an overwhelming feeling of something going wrong and I have no clue what. My O/H has been trying to reassure me that everything is okay and I'm just panicked but I can't shake it :weep:
I'm new to this forum so please be patient with me. I don't know where else to turn to. Through out my life I've had anxiety on and off, and it's usually correct. Other people tell me that it's just in my head but I feel like I'm really really connected to what's going on and is about to happen. I don't mean that I can predict what will happen or have visions but I get this overwhelming feeling of dread and terror and it will later turn out that something did happen.
Well, I've got that feeling again and I can't explain it away. My life seems to be going fairly well now but this feeling is driving me insane. I just can't shake the feeling like something really really bad is going to happen, to the point where I'm becoming a little obsessive and annoying with checking that my o/h got to and from work safely (we don't live together). He had a crash a few years back and that's why I'm so afraid of it happening again. Every morning when I hear sirens I freak out. He works in a facility where he can't have his phone on during the day, so I only get texts from him when he nips off to the toilet or is on lunch. So if I don't get a reply within a few hours, my stomach has worked it's way up into my throat with worry.
The thing is I can't think of anything else that could be going horribly wrong but car crashes are very common, so perhaps that's why I've fixated on it.
It's not just that though. I just know something isn't right, somewhere, with someone. I'll be going about my day and then I'm hit with overwhelming sadness and worry and I don't know why.
I used to get really terrible sleep paralysis and night terrors but hadn't had them as often the last two years because my life has been better but I've started getting them again, which is actually probably what triggered all this. I would only get them when something wasn't sitting right.
I know this is so vague but it's really just an overwhelming feeling of something going wrong and I have no clue what. My O/H has been trying to reassure me that everything is okay and I'm just panicked but I can't shake it :weep: