beforeiforget
19-12-14, 21:03
Hi everyone,
I came on this forum today because i wanted some reassurance regarding a neck lump i have. A lump i have had examined twice already. However, while writing the post i realised that the lump isn't my problem, because every single week i rotate around the same set of obsessions with my appearance and health. This has been the same for many years now. I burst into tears and realised i need some support.. i really don't know how to cope with health anxiety.
I have constant waves. The first was several years a go and it was by far the worst, as i didn't know i had health anxiety at this point and i worried myself into being very ill. I was convinced i was dying and was at the doctors every week with a whole list of symptoms. I recovered slowly but it's never gone away. Only a few months a go i went to get help, but to have the full help i would need weekly appointments during work time which i just can't do. i was fine again until a few weeks a go.. and then i started to obsess about my teeth.. then my heart..then my neck..and now i'm upset and crying because i know i'm stuck deep in the health anxiety cycle yet again.
I'd love some advice from someone maybe going through similar. It's so hard to deal with. Everything in life is stressful to me, and i know full well most of them arent worth stressing about. I feel very alone and can't really talk to anyone as they just brush me off as being silly. I'm starting to feel very depressed again. I don't think i am ill.. but there is always something that in my head is the end of the world. I dont go to the doctors now about symptoms as it makes me worse.
Has anyone got through a similar phase?
I'd love to end this cycle for good, it just seems impossible and exhausting!
I came on this forum today because i wanted some reassurance regarding a neck lump i have. A lump i have had examined twice already. However, while writing the post i realised that the lump isn't my problem, because every single week i rotate around the same set of obsessions with my appearance and health. This has been the same for many years now. I burst into tears and realised i need some support.. i really don't know how to cope with health anxiety.
I have constant waves. The first was several years a go and it was by far the worst, as i didn't know i had health anxiety at this point and i worried myself into being very ill. I was convinced i was dying and was at the doctors every week with a whole list of symptoms. I recovered slowly but it's never gone away. Only a few months a go i went to get help, but to have the full help i would need weekly appointments during work time which i just can't do. i was fine again until a few weeks a go.. and then i started to obsess about my teeth.. then my heart..then my neck..and now i'm upset and crying because i know i'm stuck deep in the health anxiety cycle yet again.
I'd love some advice from someone maybe going through similar. It's so hard to deal with. Everything in life is stressful to me, and i know full well most of them arent worth stressing about. I feel very alone and can't really talk to anyone as they just brush me off as being silly. I'm starting to feel very depressed again. I don't think i am ill.. but there is always something that in my head is the end of the world. I dont go to the doctors now about symptoms as it makes me worse.
Has anyone got through a similar phase?
I'd love to end this cycle for good, it just seems impossible and exhausting!